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invisible-beomgyu

⚠️CW⚠️: lots of angst

requested by: anon ( ˘ ³˘)♥
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☆Beomgyu's pov♥
I woke up with my body feeling a bit sore. Not too sore that i can't get out of bed but it was sore enough to bother me. I noticed everyone else already were up.

I panicked as i realized i slept in. But then another realization came along. I didn't have to get up. You see, everyone else got their own solo gigs.

However I didn't really get anything. No one contacted for me. Just for the other members. I mean im happy for them but...i kind of feel left out.

This isn't the only time this had happened. Earlier this month the same time happened but I still had atleast two things to shoot.

This time I got only one.

I know i should feel happy about this since I get most of the day off of work. But I can't help but feel jealousy. Lately i've been feeling...gosh how do I say it...invisible?

I have not gotten to talk with pretty much anyone because they were either stuck in conversation with someone else or just didn't even notice i was trying to talk to them.

I didn't know I was so unimportant to people. It hurt more when I had times when someone flat out told me they didn't want to talk to me at all.

Do I need to ask permission to just talk?

I felt less important than the others. But I always pretended that I loved myself. However self love wasn't a thing for me lately. I hated my reflection with passion.

But the mirror was the only place I felt seen. So everyday I stared at myself.

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I was waiting for manager to come and pick me up but he was taking longer than usual. I called him a couple of times and he always said that "im close"

He said that he was close but he felt so far away. Deep down I felt like he didn't even get in the car yet. Eventually, he called me and said he couldn't pick me up.

How surprising.

He asked if I had another way I could get there. Of course it was a hard no but I changed my answer when I remembered that I had a bike.

Sure it would take so much time to get to the photo shoot but I didn't mind. In fact, I felt that this was the perfect opportunity to calm down and put a pause on my negative feelings.

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Except it was raining drops the size of small pebbles. It wasn't much so I didn't mind as much as I should've. I just put the hood of my jacket up and started pedaling.

I often had so much trouble with controlling my speed. So it was awful when a car almost hit me when I crossed at a green light.

They flipped me off and yelled curse words at me.

Wow this day is off to such a great start.

But I didn't let it stop me from getting to the building on time.

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After 35 minutes of seemingly fast pedaling, Beomgyu finally arrived at the building. When he got inside everyone saw him sweating and gasping for air.

He was in no condition for a photo shoot. Even the stylists looked at him in disgust.

"Hey maybe we should postpone the photoshoot." A staff said