Coffee Shop | Elizabeth Olsen

80: Dependant

I think I was more anxious about being away from Lizzie than she was. It felt weird waking up in the morning without some part of her body laid on me. Or waking up to kisses. Even breakfast was different. I went to make breakfast muffins after weighing out the oats I remembered she wasn't home to eat them so there was no need to make them. I grabbed an apple and went to the office to start my day.

Not hearing her soft singing or her chattering in the phone to her friends was weird the house was quiet and I hated it. Not having to ask if she wants the first or second shower and not having her in the bathroom with me whilst I showered and got ready for bed. We hadn't spoken all day because she had been busy in meetings and I was meant to be doing work but the lack of noise somehow made it hard to concentrate.

I laid in bed and it was cold and big and I couldn't get comfortable. I ended up finding her perfume from the dressing room and spraying my pillow with it in attempt to bring me some comfort and when that didn't work I called her it rang to answerphone and I sighed. "Hello." My mum says concerned down the phone. "I think I'm broken." "What?" She asked amused. "Lizzie left last night and I can't fall asleep or concentrate or do anything. I forgot my shoes when I left the house today. She always reminds me to put them on. And I can't sleep and I want her to come home. I think my brain is broken. I'm like an addict or something." She laughed at me. "Mum it's not funny I'm serious. I don't like it. It feels weird." "That's love honey." "Well I want to return it. I feel empty." "Aww sweetie. You're just used to her being there. You've not been apart in almost a year." "But since when have I been codependent on another person? It's just not me." "You've changed. You've not shut off from the world. You've actually let someone in." "Well, I need to stop. Because I can't sleep. I can't eat the house is too big." "Do you have the car?" "Yeah." "Drive home, come stay at the house whilst she's away...Lizzie house has always been a shared space. You're used to being on you're own at the house it might help you adjust." "You think she's going to come back?" I asked getting out of bed picking up the pillow with her perfume on it and her hoodie. "Honey, you're getting married in less than 3 months. I'm almost certain she'll come back." She was amused by this whole thing but it actually scared me a little. I haven't needed someone like this since my dad. And when he died the amount of pain I felt I never wanted to feel it again. I promised myself I would let this happen. Losing Ria and then my dad. I didn't need to do it again and then Cassie passed and it was agonising and what if Lizzie leaves? Suddenly all her anxiety surrounding me leaving made sense to me. What if she felt like this too and I just didn't realise I felt like this  because she's just been there. I drive to mums she talks to me in the phone about none sense until I arrived and she met me at the door.

"Good evening, Nelly bear." She greeted mockingly. "Good evening mother." She hugged me before letting me in we both go straight to her room. "Are you for real?" She asked when I jumped in her bed. "I missed my momma." I say with a pout and she chuckled laying beside me. "And you brought your own pillow because?" "It's Lizzie's." I say sheepishly. "My love sick puppy."

Princess

Hey Angel, sorry I couldn't answer your call I was with Scarlett at dinner. I'm assuming you're asleep. Can you turn on the water for the plants in the morning? We're having a heatwave.

I had too big of an ego to admit I couldn't sleep without her so I put my phone down. "Was that Elizabeth?" Mum asked. "Yeah." "Did you tell her you're in your muma's bed because you can't stand to be away from her?" She was teasing me. "That's embarrassing why would I admit that?" "Because it'll show her that you care about her too. That you're as invested in her. Maybe that she isn't so ridiculous to think she's too attached to you. That you are also attached and comfortable with her being home."

I miss you
Today's been awful ☹️
Can't sleep without you. Currently at mums house in her bed

Aww angel. I miss you too
I'm staying at the house and it feels so empty