My life on crack at 2 am

Saturday, January 6, 2024

I spent the whole morning crying haha

I want to die

I tried using a sewing needle to stab myself in the finger but i just ended up peeling off some skin

This is mostly my brother's fault

If he had simply decided to play geometry dash on the gaming pc then this wouldnt have happened

I wish i could redo yesterday

I bet if i had just given my brother the computer then this wouldnt jave happened either

I'll probably write these on the bus or in a google doc

I should get more screen time than my brother

I actually got into full time AAP

I passed the IOWA on the 99th percentile

AND i got everything correct on my math final 2 years in a row, a perfect score

And this art is actually going to be my career when i grow up

Antway

I told my mom to buy felt so i could sew instead of using the computer

And she says i need to plan for that and i'll have to usr all the felt

WHAT DOES SHE WANT ME TO DO, WATCH PEOPLE WALK THEIR DOGS????

she said i could use her fabric but i still have to pLAN

Anyway all the ways to die seem too painful

It would be easier to just sleep the moment i get home and skip dinner so u wont have to see my family

Wverything about this situation is stupid

I would go to ny friends house

But ny mom wants me to figure out what time and when and what we'll do

And i cant do that because we barely have anytime to talk on the bus

So i'd need my computer 

WHICH I CANT USE ON WEEKDAYS!!!!

YK WHAT ELSE IS STUPID????

WHEN WE WERE YOUNGER, MY BROTHER WOULD FUCKING ASSAULT NE WHEN HE WAS MAD BECAUSE HE WAS A LITTLE SHIT!!!

IF HE KEEPS ACTING SO ANNOYING IM GOING TO TELL NY PARENTS ABOUT THAT

its not even fair

My mom is alwaus soooi happy when ny brother gets 100 on his tests but she never cares about me

I get a SINGLE question wrong because school starts toofucking early and my dad wants to make me do it again

Last nightni had several weord dreams

Thw first one and was about this weirdass woman and my dad and i turned intofoxs and fell through the trees minecraft dropper style

Tuen thenwoman inspected a penguin???

Then i had like 3 dreams - in each one a guy with a woman doing yardwork showed up on the doorstep of a family and tried to tear two brothers apart

I only remember 2 - one was like dora/st math style and the other was like a comic with primarily red and black palette

The shorter brother was enlisted in ab army and thenolder obe rescued him and then they went to a carnival

The next dream was my family at this weirdass shop?? There were cats stuck in these holes in the table to keep them from running away

I wanted this weird terrarium but in a tiny bottle and i petted the cat snd tried to scratch its belly but itbtried to assault me

Then we were looking for snails because our snailw as sad

I watched the barbie movie with my parents and im actually relating with depression barbie now help