My life on crack at 2 am

Sunday, January 7

I woke up at like 4:40 

At around 6 i wrote down the stuff i want to talk abt with the counselor soni wouldnt forget

Then i lay in bed with my kindle until now, which is 12:12

I skipped breakfast for pretty much the first time in my life

My mom went downstairs so i got my phone without her knowing

And fml i just dropped my phone and now the glass screen protector is cracked down the middle

Its almost tmrw so i can talk to the counselor because rn the only character im kinning is the Depression Barbie from the barbie movie

My dad put in the nemory card for my phone yippee

He took off the glass screen protector though

I should remindnhim to put a new one on before i drop my phone again

i spent like 4 hours writing out this doc outlining what i want to talk to the counselor about (my mom thought i was doing homework so she didn't say anything)

it's 12 pages

also according to Midnight, one time Strawberries said she would eat as little as humanly possible to be skinny

and also appaerntly when Stars was raging about chinese class, (umm let's call herrr Kpoppie? i think that's what i called her before, and it's waht Midnight called her in her rant) Kpoppie said smth like "that sucks" and then goes to rant about her problems with mathspace? (idk because when they were talking about that I was sobbing and panicking and i didnt reread that far)

girlypop badddd time

maybe rant to someone in DMs but it's really disrespectful to do it in the group chat when one of ur friends is thinking of poisoning herself to get out of class

she tried to sniff something called "calamine plus spray"??

even i wouldnt do that

that's why i try not to rant in the group chat, because someone else could be going through something worse

usually i just rant to Midnight because Stars is going through her own shit

i did read the part when Stars was raging because she didn't want to go to chinese class and Kpoppie just said "lol"

GIRLYPOP WRONG TIME

THERE IS NOTHING FUNNY ABOUT YOUR FRIEND SCREAMING THAT SHE DOESN'T WANT TO GO TO CLASS

like

rant but dont change the subject while your friend is having problems ok

like i have problems too but im not changing the subject during one of Stars's rants

anyway yk on Wednesday I was pooing in the bathroom in the lockerroom

and then Other Friend said "Is star still here or did she leave?"

and I said "what no im still here wait for me"

and apparently the PE teacher and Other Friend laughed at me (she told me later)

like idc if yall laugh at me but you didn't have to tell our whole lunch table ok

Other Friend gets on my nerves a lot

anyway i acutally practiced like 15 minutes which is the normal amount :)

this is me now

but teenager version and replace "estranged best friend's engagement photos" with "friend's playdate photos"

I NEED THIS DEPRESSION BARBIE

MATTEL NEEDS TO MAKE THIS

IF THEY DO

I WILL GIVE THEM MY MONEY

GIVE ME THE DEPRESSION BARBIE

super annoying thing about Other Friend is that whenever we're talking about something and my attention span dies and i talk about something else, she goes "are you changing the topic????"

ok im rereading the chat

Stars was sniffing calamine plus spray to poison herself to get out of chinese class and Kpoppie just goes "mood thooo"

girlypop wrong time

and stars was saying fudgefudgefudge (she doesn't like to swear in chats)

and kpoppie goes "chocfudge"

and stars says "i hate everything"

and kpoppie goes "me to girlyyyyyy"

[Stars]

,

Fri 6:51 PM
I HAVE NINE MINITE NO I DONT WANNA GO
NO
NO
I DONT WANNA
NO

[Kpoppie]

, Fri 6:51 PM
lol

another example of saying lol all the time even if its not funny

ok so i found it:

midnight says "my only advice is to suffer through it"

stars says "if you say so ig"

and then in the literally next message kpoppie goes "mAthSpace"

and midnight says "it sucks ik"

kpoppie goes "its killing meeeeeeee"

then stars says goodbye, kpoppie pauses complaining about mathspace and then says goodbye

this is here to i can talk more to midnight abt it (none of my other friends have wattpad)