Seventeen Imagines

Good Enough - S. Coups

I was sitting at the kitchen table, waiting for Seungcheol to come home. It was around the time he usually comes home, so I don't have to wait much longer for him to get here. I looked back down at my phone to see that I had gotten a couple of texts. Them being from Seungcheol and Jeonghan.

I read Seungcheol's first.

Seungcheol: I'll be a little late coming home today, i'm getting something to eat. Do you want anything?

Me: no thanks, i'm not hungry, i ate earlier

Then I read Jeonghan's.

Jeonghan: I just thought id let you know that Seungcheol wasnt acting like himself at all today, could you make sure hes okay?

I'm already confused. He's not acting himself?

Me: what do you mean? Did something happen?

Jeonghan: i dont know for sure, but he didnt look happy, his dancing was off, and his voice was dull. Im worried something happened

Me: okay, thanks for telling me. Ill make sure that hes okay

I cut off my phone and laid it back down on the table. This isn't good. He's been so happy these past few days.. I hope this isn't serious.

Now I feel impatient with waiting for him, I'm so worried now.. Hopefully he gets here soon.

>>

After a while of waiting, I heard the door open. I jumped to the sound, knowing it was Seungcheol.

"I'm home." You heard him say from the door.

I got up and walked to the door, seeing him with his food in his hands.

"How was your day?" I asked.

"Good." He said.

(Lie by Jimin starts playing)

"Oh really..?" I asked.

"Yeah.. why?" He said.

"Jeonghan told me you were off today. Are you okay?" I asked.

His face dropped with those words. He sighed and shook his head while he walked to the kitchen.

"Seungcheol?" I said, going after him.

"Listen, Y/n. Don't be concerned about what Jeonghan told you. I'm okay, I promise. I was just a little tired during practice today." He said.

I didn't really have faith in his words, but I decided not to bother him anymore on the subject. I just stood there with a concerned frown on my face.

"It's late, we should probably go to sleep." He said.

"You can go to sleep, I have some work to finish." I said.

I was going to finish a show on Netflix. I consider that work.

Seungcheol nodded and walked to the bedroom.

I went to the living room and turned on the TV, going to finish my show.

>> a few hours later

I finished the last episode, and I cut off the TV. I tried my best not to fall asleep, I was really tired.. I got up and walked to the bedroom, only to find Seungcheol awake and staring out the open window. I could feel the cool breeze hit my face.

"Seungcheol? Why are you still up?" I asked.

"I could ask you the same thing. But I really don't have to. Did you enjoy the show?" He said, turning towards me with a smirk on his face.

"Yeah. It was good. But I'm serious, what are you up for?" I said.

"Just thinking. It's really calming in the city at night, don't you think? With the star filled sky, and the city still busy despite it being so late. It's really calming.." he said.

Okay what now.

"..what are you thinking about?"

"Nothing important." He said.

"But I'm curious.." I said.

"I don't want you to worry about me, you shouldn't have to deal with my doubt."

"Well now I'm slightly worried. What are you doubting?"

He stayed silent, staring out the window. I sighed and walked next to him, looking out the window with him.

The expression that he had on his face when I walked in had completely changed. He went from looking content to sad.

"You know you can tell me anything, right?" I whispered, leaning against him slightly.

"I can, but I don't want to." He said.

"Seungcheol. I'm not going to sleep until you tell me what's wrong." I said.

That made him crack.

"I don't want you to do that, you'll be tired in the morning.. so I'll tell you." He said.

Thank goodness, that was getting a little annoying, but at least he's telling me. That makes me happy.

"So, what's going on?" I asked.

"Recently.. I feel like I haven't been a good leader. I just feel like I don't work as hard as the others, mainly Jihoon and Soonyoung. They have such big roles in the group and it would all fall apart without them.. but what am I here for..? Why am I in the position as leader..? For them, it's much more well deserved.." he said.

"Seungcheol, that's not true. If you weren't fit to be the leader then you wouldn't be the leader. They need you, they need someone to guide them and to make sure they're doing everything right. You're so great at what you do, you don't need to think otherwise of yourself." I said.

He kept silent for a little while, continuing to stare out the window.

"But isn't it natural to feel doubtful of yourself? When there are things at risk if you're not doing something correctly.. And just the feeling that you can do better, but it's never satisfied. I can't just meet my own expectations.." he said.

"You've definitely met mine. There's always room for improvement. And sometimes to grow there's gotta be something that could cause a bump in the road. You're amazing Seungcheol, even if you can't believe it yourself just know that I'm so proud of you and how far you and the guys have gotten. You wouldn't have gotten this far without cooperation and teamwork, and you've done a great job leading them." I said.

Once again, he went silent for a while.

I was tired, and I had really said all I wanted..

"I'm going to sleep, if you need to talk about it later-"

"No. No, we don't have to talk about it later.. it's fine. I understand now." He said.

"Do you really?" I asked.

"Yes.. Thank you so much Y/n, I really don't know what'd I do without you.." he said, turning and wrapping his arms around me.

Well, that was resolved fast. Or at least I hope it was.. seems like it.

I should probably just.. watch out for him.

Yeah, that sounds like a plan.

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{a/n}

HI

I wrote this for my homie ugliwoozistan

it's kind of shit, sorry fren, I tried my best. I didn't know it'd be over a thousand words though, I thought I didn't make it that long but I guess I got a lil carried away😅

Hope you enjoyed this regardless of it being bad..

strong power thank u
bye~