A Painful Life

Nobody's There

I lived my life..alone...unnoticed.
I had a few friends...never had a chance to say 'goodbye'

Nobody's there to see me mourn
Nobody's there to be with me.
Nobody's there to see me always grieve!
Nobody's there to help the man I became

My friends.
Loss
Pain
Depression
Mystery

I want to scream, but I know no one would hear me.
I want to ask for company, but I know no one would come near me.
I want to ask for a friend, but no one would stay.
I want to ask for a real smile.
I want to ask for a new mask, to hide my pain.

I want somebody to stand by me...too bad nobody wants to. It's normal, right guys?!

Thoughts: Better kill yourself!
Me: I wish I could!
Thoughts: You should!
Me: I tried more than 3 times!
Thoughts: Succeed on the 4th attempt!
Me: Maybe.

Loss...
And paths we shall cross
The dice has been tossed.
Feel cold in the world of never ending frost.

I want to cry.
I want to die.
I want to try.
I want to smile!

But no...I can't

Fear...
You lost who were dear.
I see your eye always leave a tear.
I want someone to interfere.

Depression...
I know death is a solution.
My existence was always a pollution.
The world was prone to corruption.

Nobody was there for me..