A Painful Life

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I do not belong here..
You brought me to fear..
I don't trust the thoughts in my head.
Besides the thought of being dead.

Why do fucking feel so mortified?!
Why do I fucking feel that was a lie?!
I felt so invisible.
Unacceptable..

Why do I have this undying rage?!
Anger, pain, set me in this cage!
WHY WAS I RUINED BY YOUR LIES?!
Why do I get consumed as time flies...

WHY DO I SEEM FORGOTTEN...
You never heard me speak a sentence!
I DON'T NEED YOUR FUCKING HELP.
Hear me scream, hear me yelp.

Too many fake faces...
Tangled me like laces..
To get Something new...
..Let go of a few...

I tried to gain your respect...
Yet..WHY DO I EXPECT?
YOU WALKED PASSED ME....
LEAVING ME BE...

RUINED MY LIFE!!!
I DON'T WANNA STRIVE!
EFFORTS IN RUINS...
No one is really caring...

YOU DON'T KNOW ME ANY WELL!
TO THE DEVIL, MY SOUL I SHALL SELL!!!!
WHY...AM I SO SET ABLAZE IN UNDYING RAGE?!
AT EVERYTHING, MYSELF...I'M TEARING EVERY PAGE

I can't stop this flame..each second it bellows!
I'M DROWNING IN SO MUCH SORROW!!!!
I'M LEFT BEHIND
STORY TIME!

Shattered in one rumour.
Just ONE....SHATTERED MY FUTURE.
I HAVE NO ROOM FOR FORGIVENESS...
In this world, there is no selfless.

We see each other every day...
You pass by as if I wasn't in the same way..
You turned your back against me...
Who else can I turn out to be?!

My world of black and white. Now black!!!
I CAN'T FIX THIS...I CAN'T! THAT'S A FACT...
I'm holding onto my motherfucking pride!!!
NOBODY EVER WAS IN MY SIDE!!!

"Don't mind it" they said.
THE MORE I RESIST. I WISHED I WAS DEAD!!!!
Nothing of me was ever good enough!
I NEVER WANTED TO ACT SO TOUGH..

THERE IS ALWAYS A WAR INSIDE MYSELF.
Why am I like this? ASK IT YOURSELF.
WORDS RIGHT NOW...ARE MEANINGLESS..
EVERYTHING HAS NO WORTH. NOTHINGLESS!!!

WHY AM I IN PAIN?!
WHY AM I IN RAGE?!
I LOST EVERY GAIN!!!
I'M OUT OF CONTROL...KEEP ME IN THIS CAGE!!!

The bloody truth. I don't need anyone!
I HATE EVERYTHING...EVERYONE!!!
I stood wide-open as if I was not there...
I don't need anyone here.

WHY AM I SO VULNERABLE?!
PAIN IS SO AVAILABLE...
YOU IGNORED ME...
YOU CANNOT SEE?!

I'M DIFFERENT FROM EVERY KIND!
YET I LOST MY FUCKING MIND!!!
WORSE THAN SCHIZO!
BEYOND A FUCKING PSYCHO!!!

FORGIVENESS. BANISHED
REALITY. TARNISHED!
HUMANITY. INSANE
ANGER. INHUMANE!!!!