A Painful Life

Twist..Twist..

We all have one light...
I don't care...I don't wanna fight..
The mouth only speaks...
..Behind me, for being weak..

I used to seek my cure...
Until I realized life was obscure...
Destiny? More like twisted fate...
Walk the path with everyone's hate...

I'm a living moment wanting an end...
But the truth will never be bent...
The voice will always be shattered...
Heart and mind..forever tattered..

I used to see brilliance...
Now I lost my innocence..
My life is a wrong phrase...
Waiting to be erased...

Everything is getting tense...
When shall be my death sentence.?
I've been of no need...
..pain bearing seed...

My world is black and white...
I JUST WANNA WIN THIS FIGHT!!!
..To regain my conscience...
But no one had innocence..

My mind I shall tame...
I shall live with no name...
I lived in crime..
Never stopped cryin'

I never sought deceit...
Yet I faced defeat...
I'm begging for mercy...
..END MY AGONY!!

The words are loaded..
My soul seems faded..
I sought for my solution...
Without any reason...

I LIVED SO DISTANT...
Everything WAS so brilliant..
I used to have my crown...
..I'm the one bowing down...

I thought everything was complete..
"Thought" was just deceit..
Looking for the grand finish...
..JUST GAVE ME ETERNAL ANGUISH...

I just wanted mercy...
Not AGONY!!!
I wanted love...
Not grudge...

I didn't want attention...
I wanted a solution...
What's with this anxiety?
More melancholy?

I'm always dead...always was..but I still feel..

I wish I never felt anything..
Not be nothing!
I wished I was heartless...
Not lifeless...

I wanted to be accepted..
BUT I WAS REJECTED...
I wanted to be belonging...
I want to stop crying...

End my dreaming...
Stop the screaming!
NO DESTINY...NO LOCATION..
..JUST DEPRESSION...

I'm abandoned...
Stuck at hell's bottom..
I'm dying...
I'm not lying...

I've been on my own...
Crying, dying, alone..
Count the losses...
HOW MANY MORE DOSES?!

I can't find my worth, my purpose...my meaning..
MY REDEMPTION..

Listen to the birds twitter..
Listen to me, I'M THE SINNER
You're the pure!
While I'm the obscure?!

Heed my words...
This is a cruel world..
I have no sanity...
JUST PURE INSANITY...

I have no more satisfaction...
No more salvation...
The flower once bloomed..
Then it was already doomed!

Why do I keep biting my tongue...
Why am I always on the wrong..
I got more shadows...
I drown somewhere shallow..

Play that tune..
My life's ruin..
Living so oblivious..
Yet hatred was so obvious..

Finding my own voice...
Was never a choice!
I'm afraid, scared...
For life was a dare...

I wanna sing..
I wanna shout...
I wanna scream
'Til the words dry out...

My heart's loud as lions..
Yet I let my voice be tamed..
I am more than different
Yet there's more to be ashamed...

JUST HATE ON ME...
DO IT ALREADY!
I don't care anymore!
PAIN PAIN! GALORE!!

I got 2 arms..I'm letting go..I got 2 legs..I'm stuck..I got 2 eyes..I'm blind...I got one mouth..I'm screaming..

Just leave me alone!
My life you do not own!
My life I shall sell!
For it is a living hell!!!

The words to change anything!
My voice bore from nothing..
Look through my eyes...
They say I'm filled with lies..

They say I cannot be trusted...
Wow..I'm dumbfounded..
They should be in debt...
But I feel nothing but my death..

The world is cruel...
I'm out of fuel..
Everything is just plastic memories...
Everyone has fake identities...

Two...

Two....