A Painful Life

The Roots

I was the cause of this abyssal anguish
I was just trying, so so...foolish
The roots of this problem..
My dignity has fallen..

You tried to predict my future
Unsuccessful me will be nurtured
You compared me to my brothers...
Now I'm just a dying voice that falters..

You made fun of me yet I stood silent..
You continued, you were persistent.
Then I became roots of the fight..
I just wished I was out of everybody's sight!

The fact you all hate me so much...
I can hear my demons say "hush hush"...
The hatred I received made my steps limited..
Now I justed wished I was dead..

Take my eyes away to stop witnessing
Take my ears away to stop hearing
Take my brain away to stop doubting!
Take my feelings away to stop feeling!

I tried to ask permission over something simple
But it escalated fast, it sent tears trickle...
The revolution of this life...
Shall end with a double-edged knife..

This war was always one-sided..
The consequence has already been decided...
The roots of hell, arose...
For I am like a wilted rose...

You ignored me for you were jealous
You were possessive, too self-righteous..
You ignored me once more..
Oh joy, hatred and pain galore!

We forgave each other once more
But you still speak behind my back..
You said we were friends again...
But I just all of this would fuckin' end!

ALL THE GUNS ARE POINTED AT ME READY TO FIRE ONCE MORE...I TOLD YOU...I'M THE ROOTS...