A Painful Life

CUTS..

It all started with...

One cut
Two cuts
Three cuts, FOUR!
Until own blood starts spillin on the floor!

You ended my joy!
Now I'm a more depressed boy..
I used to fear blades!
Now I want them to stay!

I wanted you to stay
I tried to make you stay..
You hated on me..
You left me in the dark, lost..
You wanted me gone..
You didn't give me time to explain...

I was quiet.
They judged me for who I was.
They said they were sick of my face.
They strangled me for no particular reason.
They treated more than shit than the shit I am.

Five cuts
Six cuts
Seven cuts, EIGHT!
My world is filled with so much hate!

Each cut filled with shame..
For slowly shall fade, my name.
They said "game on", as life is a like a game.
Indeed it is. "Game over", for my cuts I cannot tame.

Nine cuts
Ten cuts
Eleven cuts, TWELVE!
You already left me forgotten over there!
A cut here, a cut there, a cut everywhere!

I tried to resist the urge to cut.
I know it isn't fun, I think I must..
I see a blade, you shall see my eyes filled with so much..
A blood drip, a blood splash, is just my 'hush'

I shall slowly fade
My life is too stained!
I'll erase my name!
A cut for I cannot tame!

I'm all out of luck!
Now all I can say is "FUCK!"
This life has left me stuck!
Now I'm lost just like the ugly duck..

I see a blade
My blood will slowly fade...
Erase my name
Filled with such shame..

I got nothing, but to cut..