A Painful Life

I wish you knew that:

I would’ve died for you, would've tried for you..
I would always try to make the time for you..
I would never ever tell a lie to you..
Even though we split, I still feel tied to you..
And, I never wanted to split..
I never wanted to drift..
I never wanted another man to love you all over again..
I never wanted the end, I didn't want any of this
I wanted to wrap a ring around your finger, maybe even have a couple of kids..
I guess it is what it is..
I lost my hope, who we love kills us the most...
I'm so afraid to get close..
We are just people until we all turn into ghosts..
A future we’ll never know..
Yeah, it's something we'll never know..
And sometimes you gotta let go of what kills.. you, even if it kills you to let go...

I have never pictured you leaving...
Breaking up is never easy..
We're dead now, and I'm still grieving..
I was there whenever you would need me.
Even all the times that you’d deceive me..
Every single night that you went drinking..
I was sitting with my phone, feeling all alone...
Wishing you could see the way you treat me..
I feel so broken I just wanna die..
I gave a second chance a million times..
I live my truth, you a living lie..
Cause the same issues with different guys..
It's the same bullshit just a different time..
This is your loss girl, it isn't mine..
I am not perfect, but I fucking tried..
You would make mistakes and then you'd fucking hide..
Now we're gone and it's dead and buried
You lost forever just for temporary..
What were you thinking? You weren't thinking clearly..
All the memories, rest in the cemetery...