A Painful Life

Twist.

I answer "Nothing"
There always is something...
They never gave a damn..
I never had a real fam!

SO WHAT NOW?!
I BOW DOWN?!
No! HELL NO!
You do not know what lies below..

I tried to help...
And shall bore my dread...
You pointed the gun towards me...
Once more, my trust was blind to see...

My help was never appreciated...
Put me to sleep. I want to be sedated...
Am I seen as a monster...
Who shall forever witness terror..

I have become nothing...
Who bore from painful words of something...
I want to face nothing from this world...
Especially when I am shot by harsh words...

Always me..always..

Leave me alone...
I shall turn to stone...
The place I sought...
I lost, cried..fought...

Through something simple..
It grew and made me tremble...
I felt so pointless..worthless..so little!!!
Why am I always caught in the middle...

The subject was different...
Suddenly it changed current...
I was drowned in confusion...
It lead me to attention...

They shot me down, me bleeding..
A person of no fault, left greaving..
Why am I always thought bad of?
I just wish I was treated so soft...

Stop fakin your smile, while I fake mine...
Let us stop faking our laughs, waste of time
Stop wasting time, we all know it can kill...
My life is full, yet anguish you fill...

The weight I have heaved...
The pain I have greaved...
Is enough to end me!
I just hope all of you could see...

I speak of my sorrow...
I cannot live for tomorrow...
You thought I was happy?
Exactly, what is happy? I know anxiety...

When I'm gone....Leaving me alone...

"Stop talking" I was told...
I just spoke what was untold...
I helped...and bore havoc...
I got shot...I was set ammock...

You have no experience...
You never heard the howling sirens...
I want you to see what I see...
I see what you see, but you never understood me...

I want...to be seen through...
You knew me..but not so thorough...
My heart no longer beats...
It aches...I was given away as treats..

Why am I belittled...
World forever tilted..
A curse endowed?
I tried to live without

It's a morning light...
First set of eyes, loss of fight..
The night has such poise
First word, loss of voice

I heard true thunder crackle...
Even the demon's cackle..
No memories shall to be spoke..
They shall all be a hoax...

I have spoken few words...Tremendous amount of emotion...

A twisted story...
Set me ablaze in agony...
A story of twisted fate...
Shot me down with such hate...

Ha..ha..ha...HA..

I was brought upon bitter anguish!
I just for life's coming finish...
People can twist...
Act like the mist...

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No hope for second life, havana...
It'll be same or worse...
I'll be dead once it bores...

I never heard praise...
Nothing ever stays...
Don't ask, we'll die either way...
I'll be gone someday...

..one...

..One...