A Painful Life

Well-aware

You said it was okay...
If I slept another day...
If I cried the night away
Only to find out you would not stay...

The bruises turned to cuts...
The cuts turned to scars of lust...
You made solid gold rust..
Tarnished every single amount of trust..

You've set flame upon the waters...
Leaving my mind in stutters..
Bleeding, dying behind the shutters?
As if I really mattered!

The people that I knew..left me dumbfounded
The most trusted left me surrounded..
You of most dear people, broke my judgement
Unknown of my mistake tears my head!

I was only nothing but a dreamer...
A dreamer who lost all his power..
I now distaste your trust..so sour...so bitter..
You tossed everything leaving me to scour..

I tried forget our little petty funtimes...
Unable to read between your lines...
Then took away what as mine...
The truth is I wasn't lying...

I looked like a mistake you mistook...
I gave my all...didn't you care to look?
Out of all the fishes, it was you one on hook..
In this game of chess...I was an impatient rook..

A million lights once flickered...
Then an eternal abyss you triggered..
The voice of our memories still linger..
So close, so cold on the tip of my finger..

Night and Day was beautiful..
Now, anytime felt so mournful..
To count the loss of such beauty, is so awful..
Began the story on how you turned so cruel..?

Diamonds once crystal clear...
The shattering is all I could hear..
To be downcasted by former peers...
To remain with one drowns me in fear!!!

I'm well-aware that I'm just a moment...
I'm just a man facing such resentment...
I loved the fact we WERE happy..
But hate the fact it didn't end happily.