Chapter 44

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Too good at goodbyes - Sam Smith
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You must think I'm new to this
but I've seen this all before
I'm way too good at GOODBYES

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Its been two weeks.

14 days, 336 hours, 20160 minutes and  1209600 seconds since I last saw Ross.

          And as pathetic as I probably sounded he left with my heart but of course not before he trampled over it.

    Stamping repeatedly on the little Love that I had left. How could I possibly moved on? He was literally the only thing I had. As much I thought myself to be independent I had lied to myself. Ross was basically the only thing keeping me sane in my messed up life. And now that he left me I finally came to terms that no one could possibly love me and in no way could I even love someone, anyone again.

        Ross Shor lynch had wrenched a blade through me that no amount of surgery could possibly fix. 

      As I sat in butch's diner all that kept repeating in my head was what did I do? Did he really now realize my past was too much of a burden for him? How long did he feel that way? Did he feel that way when we made love? Well now I know that to him we weren't.

         But he was so good at faking it. He had honestly fooled me into thinking that he was really in love with me that I Laura Marano HHS call girl could possibly be enough for him.  Did he do all of that, was all his lies so he could get in my pants?  And when he finally did he hit the road with a way prettier girl who seemed more modest than me.

       But I was a hypocrite. I myself uses the Lynch's. They dressed me and paid for my mother's funeral and because their son and brother broke my heart I refused to even answer or return their calls.

    As I scowled through my phone. The one Ross bought me, I couldn't help but look at the the ones I snapped of him.

 The one Ross bought me, I couldn't help but look at the the ones I snapped of him

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   I remembered this was a movie night and Mr.Lynch was giving a joke about something really dumb but I was actually funny. and u realized that I wasn't smiling at Mr. Lynch's joke but at how handsome he was.

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