I hate that the school system can't change the name on attendence. Even nicknames show up after your legal name.
It's just stupid.
Today we had a sub, and they called my name for attendence and I had to try so hard not to cry,
And then the chior teacher called my name *I'm not out her btw* which made it 10x worse.
And then on the fricken stupid paper where it has all the performers and songs *I can't think of the name rn, cuz i'm a doofus lol* I just passed it on without even looking for my birthname. I'm sure it's there, but I don't even want to look at my birthname.
Hearing and seeing it makes me sick to my stomach and gives me mini-depressive episodes, and mini-anxiety attacks.
And by mini I mean trying not to tear my whole essence of my being appart for the rest of the day.
