DISARRAY (Niall Horan A.U)

Chapter 36

Jess' P.O.V

As we walk up the stairs to Niall's dorm he can't keep his hands off me. Niall keeps slapping my ass and grabbing my hand to pull me closer to him. The sexual tension seems to get higher with each step we take. The alcohol pumping through my veins is making it hard to think. I want more than anything to jump on Niall and do anything right here in the stairwell. The small sober part of my mind keeps telling me to not react how I want.

When we finally reach his door I relax, but only for a moment. Once Niall unlocks the door he pulls me into the dorm and hastily shuts the door. He leads me to his room, which has my mind going a mile a minute. I keep reminding myself that this is Niall. He isn't taking me to his room to hook up. Wait, is it hooking up if we are dating? It wouldn't be making love since we aren't in love. I guess it would just be sex. Well, that's not very romantic. I'm surprised that I am thinking that. Sex has never been a romantic jester to me. Niall changes that, because he thinks sex is a big deal. I cannot have sex with Niall until I know that it means more. That might never happen, but I am okay with that. Niall is worth that.

"Niall, why are we running to your room?" I ask so my mind stops thinking about sex.

"I have that surprise to show you, remember?" Niall turns around and grins at me. We slow down and halt to a stop when we get to his door. He opens it and we walk inside. "I figured we could watch the movie in here."

Why does he want to watch a movie in here? We hardly ever spend any time in here. Harry is staying the night, so maybe Niall doesn't want to take over Harry's "bed". I am exhausted though. I don't know how long I will last. I'm pretty positive that as soon as I lay down I will fall asleep.

"You want to watch a movie in your room on your small laptop screen?" I ask as Niall flips on his light switch. That's when I see a huge flat screen tv sitting on Niall's dresser. "Where did you get this tv from?"

"It was another bribe from my mum's husband." Niall rolls his eyes.

"Niall, give the guy a chance."  As I say this Niall snaps his head up to look at me.

"I will not give him a chance. He seems like one big manipulator," Niall says bitterly.

"Seems like?" I bite my lip not wanting to ask my next question, but I have to. "Niall, have you ever met the guy?"

"No! How fucked up is that? I have been gone for two months and mum goes and gets married." Niall scoffs and runs a hand through his hair. "I break my back to take care of her and once I leave she then decides she is happy and randomly gets married."

I am speechless. I have never seen Niall talk about his mum this way. What does he mean by break his back to take care of her? Why does she need to be taken care of? Can I ask Niall these questions or are they too personal?

"Do you want to talk about it?" I hesitantly ask.

"No, I just want to enjoy you." Niall's eyes widen. "I mean I want to enjoy my time with you."

I laugh and say, "I knew what you meant, but in all seriousness, if you want to talk about it we can. You never know, maybe they were secretly dating while you were still at home."

"Thanks. Your wrong, but thanks for trying." Niall walks up to me and gives me a quick kiss. "What movie should we watch?"

"Is it too early in the season to watch a Christmas movie?" I ask completely entertained by how Niall changed the topic.

"Why would it be too early? The next holiday is Christmas." Niall looks at me confused.

"You are forgetting one of the best holidays ever, Thanksgiving!" I yell, but then I remember that Niall doesn't celebrate Thanksgiving. "Have you ever celebrated Thanksgiving?"