danger | ethan dolan

twenty four

ari's pov:

My body feels hollow. The only feeling I have is my heart, which feels like someone took a sledgehammer and hit it repeatedly.

I watch as Angelica kisses Ethan, grabbing onto his shirt as she pulls him closer to her, Ethan kissing her back.

He's kissing her back.

I take a step back, stunned. I feel like I've been punched in the gut. Now I definitely feel sick.

I can feel my heart pounding in my chest harder. I shake my head, this can't be happening. It cannot.

Ethan looks up and his eyes widen as he sees me. I suck in a deep breath, a weird feeling taking over my body, making me shiver.

I turn around walking away. What the fuck was I thinking? I came out here to fucking apologise to him because I felt bad for not forgiving him when he told me he was sorry.

What if I hadn't come out when I did? Nobody would've ever known. Maybe some things are just better off unknown.

I hear a deep voice calling my name. Ethan. I keep walking until I can't take it anymore. I lean my hand against a random locker, trying to take deep breaths. It feels like I can't breathe at all. I don't think I can go any further; my entire body feels numb and my legs refused to move.

Why am I so upset?

"Aria," a voice whispers in front of me. "I'm sorry, you weren't supposed to see that," he murmurs. "Whatever," I say, trying to walk away. Maybe if I got away from him, I wouldn't like him anymore.

Like him? Yeah, I refused to believe it myself but no matter how hard I try to convince myself, I can't. Unfortunately, I like Ethan way more than I should.

"What are you even doing out here?" he asks. I clench my jaw, opening my eyes, which were full of anger. I guess Ethan caught on as he took a step back.

"I came out here to say I'm fucking sorry, which I take back. Just fucking leave me alone Ethan! I fucking hate you!" I say, closing my eyes. I slide down sitting on the floor, my arms around my head so he can't see my tears.

"You're the one who said we were over Arianna! You are nobody. You can't fucking control me because you're the one who ended it!" he yells.

I look up at him, and squeeze my eyes shut, trying to hide my tears. After a while, I stand up slowly, opening my teary eyes. Ethan quickly realises.

"Arianna, I'm so sorry, I didn't—" but I cut him off quickly. "No Ethan, you're right! We are nothing to you. Never was, was I?" Ethan looks up at me, remorse in his eyes, as he opens his mouth to say something.

"Don't you fucking dare Ethan. I fucking hate you so much and you know why? Because I fucking love you and I hate myself for falling for you." I say, my breath quivering, as I whispered the last few words. I turn around walking away as uncontrollable sobs continue.

a/n: fuCk, i'm so depressing, i'm so sorry, i get like this when i'm on my period. i'm so sorry, you guys have every right to be mad

this is also a short ass chapter, i promise i'll do something longer next time xx

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lots of love & eggplants,

-N