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~Kaixreader~ Remember

#28

Request: me

Word count: 966

Prompt: "All you can do is remember him."

Universe: Show

Age: 18

Status: Dating

Note/Warning:
~ Based of After Zane's death.
~ mild language
~ make out scene???
~ it's still on a hiatus, but this was a lazy Drabble for you guys to read while I get my motivation back. This wasn't outlined or anything I just let my thumbs do its thing.
~ also the only Kai x Reader I like. I really wrote this from my heart

"Can I have another fruit punch?" Kai asked from the bar stand. I nodded and got the fruits needed, tossed them into the blender to, well, blend. While I got that going on, I looked over at Kai. Something was troubling him. I could read this guy so easily, I convinced myself that it was some kind of superpower.
I walked over to him, he noticed and averted his gaze somewhere else. I held his hands and tried to look at him.

"Babe, what's wrong?" I tried to catch his gaze. My heart ached for the boy before me, he had no idea that he had me wrapped around his pinkie. He didn't talk, but he didn't pull back his hands which I was glad for.
"Talk to me," I pleaded, hoping he could just say at least one word. When he looked up, his eyes met mine, and I could see his whole world crashing down. He looked so vulnerable, so weak. I just wanted to hug him out of his misery but I couldn't. Literally, the table was between us, I couldn't just walk through and hug the daylights out of him. But I had the strongest urge to.

"Y/n! Your juice is blended!" Harper called. I nodded at him, telling him that I would be there. When I came back to Kai with his juice, he finally spoke.

"I miss him," he blurted, sadness dripping from his lips. He didn't need to explain what he meant, the first couple of weeks this guy came, he told me everything. From leading up to Zane's death to how he felt about the whole situation. I felt so sympathetic that I even cried. (Yes, I'm an emotionally unstable girl working in the most brutal underground fighting arenas) He said that he couldn't even tell his sister how he felt, she wouldn't 'understand'. I convinced him to explain to his one and only sibling of how much he grieves for his 'brother.'  When he did, Nya gave him the most unpleasant advice. She told him that he would get over it soon and to go back to Wu.

"I know," I nodded, grabbing his hands once more and gave them a comforting squeeze.

"It should've been me."

"Kai, we both know that it shouldn't have."

"I deserve to die more than he does. I have anger issues and can't control myself. I can't forgive anyone if they make me mad. I get irritated so easily. I get annoyed at the slightest things. My fire destroys stuff. I get jealous at things I shouldn't be jealous of. I shout to get people's attention. Heck, I'm so cocky everyone hates me for that." I had never heard him speak of himself so low. He usually puts a smirk on his face and is confident at all things. Seeing him like this was so unusual, it was so..wrong. Him not boasting himself was so wrong.

"Kai-"

"No! He doesn't and didn't do any of those. He isn't any of those things. Life would've been better without me than him," tears slowly fell down his cheekbones. I sighed as I jumped onto the counter and fell into the seat beside him.
I held his face in my hands, I saw him visibly relax but I knew he didn't actually relax.  I knew that those negative thoughts still floated in his head, telling him all the stuff that were true, but wasn't a reason for him to die. I wiped his tears with the pad of my thumb, he closed his eyes and inhaled audibly.
"I'm sorry."

"Don't apologize for anything you shouldn't be apologizing for. You deserve everything. Besides, if you died, I wouldn't have met the love of my life. Mom used to always say that 'everything happens for a reason.' I didn't believe her and thought it was karma for all the sins I had done, but now, I believe her. Everyone has flaws Kai, a lot or a little, but they're not reasons for you to die." I ranted long enough to get the words in his head. He opened his eyes and his gorgeous amber eyes looked at me from under his lashes.
That guy snatched my heart in a second. I was falling for him more and more by the day.

"It's just- these thoughts get passed around, telling me that I should've done something. But I was useless in battle, couldn't do anything."

"What if you did do something? What if you stopped Zane? This city would be in a shithole and that would be your fault. Some sacrifices have to be made sometimes," I shrugged. He slightly glared at me, but then softened his gaze.

"Maybe you're right, but I can't help to feel that it was somewhat my fault. Luckily, you're doubting all of my doubts, which is making me feel better. Thank you," he said right before pecking my lips. I pulled his face closer and kissed him deeply. I knew he needed it, heck, I needed it. He was a fucking emotional mess and I needed to help him cope with it.
His sadness, sorrow, grief and the guilt he had was subsiding. I could tell by his his actions and the way he kissed me. I wrapped my arms around his neck, deepening the kiss. He bit my bottom lip and pulled it, earning a low groan from me. When he let go of my lip, I kissed him immediately and felt a smile dance on his lips. When I was suffocating, I parted from his addicted kiss and pecked him twice more before I rest my forehead against his.

"All you can do is remember him for now." I said.
"I love you."

"I love you too."