Shy

Apology Chapter 74

I killed eight walkers. 

I KILLED EIGHT WALKERS!!! 

What have I done? What have I done?! I've never killed this many walkers at a time! Oh no. Am I a murder? I didn't... feel anything! I didn't blink. I couldn't feel sorry for them. I didn't feel any emotion! 

I'm a horrible person. 

I start to sniffle. I need to go back. I need to talk to Daryl. I need to apologize. 

I'm a horrible person! 

I turn around and look for a way to get back. I start running in the direction of the cell block and shove open the doors. 

" I looked, and and I-" Daryl stops talking as he sees me. There's blood all over my clothes. I have bits and pieces of different walkers on me. 

My clothes are ripped from when I tripped. My hair has blood in it. 

I sniffle and  no one talks as they stare at me in horror. 

I step forward and drop the pole to the ground. I walk a few steps farther as tears prick my eyes. I break out sobbing. " I killed them. " I cry. 

Daryl rushes forward. 

" I killed th-th-them. " 

" Jesse! " 

" I-I killed them!! I'm s-sorry. I'm so so sorry! " I choke a bit on my tears. 

Daryl hugs me tightly and I shake. " It's okay. It's okay. What happened? Are you okay? " 

" I killed them. " 

" Who? " 

" T-the walkers. I killed walkers. " 

" It's okay. You're okay. Calm down. " Daryl says softly as I start to hyperventilate. 

" I didn't mean it. I didn't mean to yell at you. I, I'm sorry. " 

Daryl strokes my hair softly. " I know. I know. It's okay. It's okay. " Daryl picks me up as he stands. " Shh. Calm down. Calm down. It's okay. " 

" I'm sorry. " I cry again. 

Daryl carries me past a very guilty looking Carl and a bunch of worried looking adults. Merle raises his eyebrow at Daryl as we walk past him. 

My bloody pole piece lays in the middle of the main part of the cell block. 

What a great decoration.