Stay With Me - Yeongyu FF

Chapter 2

Yeonjun POV

WHAT EXACTLY DID I JUST DO?!

I fought with my parents to NOT come here, and now I'm kissing the boy.

HELP, 911, I AM KISSING THE BOY.

I AM KISSING A BOY!

I don't know if I should be stressing out because I kissed the boy or if I am kissing a boy, but I'm stressed.

Dad will sooo not like this.

I break the kiss almost instantly, panting like I've just done the dirty.

Oh god imagine him and I doing the dirty.

WHY AM I THINKING ABOUT THAT I'M GOING TO GET MURDERED!

I must be visibly panicked because that guy I had to come see just fell off the bed laughing.

What's his name again?

DID I KISS SOMEONE WHO'S NAME I FORGOT??

I try to calm down, but he's ruining me. His smile, his soft dimple, his deep voice that sounds like a lullaby and I'm about to fall asleep. Why do I hear his voice...

Oh he's talking to me.

Maybe I should listen.

"I... I'm very tired... So...rry"

"N-No it's alright. I think we're going to leave you anyway"

"Come... back"

"Yeah, don't worry..." I search in my mind to remember his name. "Beomgyu"

"You for...got?"

"N-No.... M-Maybe"

"It's... okay Yeonjun... it hap...pens"

I softly lay him down on his bed when I see his eyes close. He falls asleep as soon as his head hits the pillow. I silently leave his room and go back to the living room, where Beomgyu's mother was doing the final greetings. Is she a single mother? Where's Beomgyu's dad?

"Oh, Yeonjun, could you bring Beomgyu downstairs, please? Where is he?"

"He fell asleep Mrs. Choi"

She turns back to my parents. "Oh. Alright. Sorry, I think it's better not to wake him up..."

My mother answers. "No problem!"

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When we're in the car, I try my best not to ask about Beomgyu's dad, but mom notices that there's something wrong.

"Where is Beomgyu's father?" I ask her.

Mom stays silent a while before answering. "I don't know, but all of their photos in the living room are ripped. I think he might have died"

I let out a soft "oh" and turn to look out the window. Soon enough, we are driving through our neighborhood, and I realise how much I already miss him.

I don't think falling for a dying man was the best idea. I can't imagine letting him go. Even if we have the possibility of dating for a year and a half... he said that he could die anytime...

I shake these thoughts away as my father drives the car through the gates of our house and parks it.
He turns around to look at me before unlocking the doors. "The boy surely told you how long he had to live"

I nod sadly.

"Which means that even though we want you to keep him company, I think it's better if you try not to attach yourself too much. I don't want you getting too horribly hurt because of a good friend you lost"

"Dad.... What do you think of him, honestly?"

Mom answers in his place. "He's a very nice boy, even if he's not very talkative"

"I-I mean... physically also"

"He's a pretty boy" I bite my lip trying not to laugh at my father's comment. "Why this question?"

"I.... I don't know. J-Just a thought"

"What do you think of him?"

My mother's question throws me off guard. "I think he's pretty... and funny. And cute" I blush as I answer, giving myself away.

"What did you guys do in his room?" Asks my mom.

I'm sure I turn very pale at this. I didn't know what to say: I usually never lie to my parents, but they don't know that I'm... not straight. I stay silent, knowing that they'd realise that I've done something bad.

"I... Mom, Dad..." I decide that this may be the best thing to do, before I start getting serious with Beomgyu. "I don't think I'm into girls. I don't know if it was in the heat of the moment or whatever, but I kissed him. We've been flirting all night, and he's gay, and I kissed him, andIstillwanttolivepleasedontmurdermeimsorry"

I prepare myself for a slap or something, but nothing comes. My mother's eyes show a look of surprise and Dad huffs. What did I just do?

WHAT HAVE I DONE?

MY PARENTS HATE ME NOW.

THEY'RE GONNA DISOWN ME.

I JUST TOLD THEM THAT I WAS GAY!

FUCK ME.

FUCK THE WORLD.

FUCK--

"Yeonjun... Listen. I know you're nervous, but it's okay to not love girls, alright. The problem is that we're not even sure if Beomgyu's gonna live for 1 and a half years more. I don't want you getting hurt" Dad looks at me with legitimate concern in his eyes. He doesn't mind? Does he really care for me that much?
I love you dad!

"I know Dad, but he told me that they'll realise when he'll reach the end. And I'm ready Dad. I know this isn't good for me, but I'm sure I'll get over it. I already know that we don't have much time. I guess I just want to act while I still can"

My parents stay silent, and I know exactly what they're thinking. They're right: I shouldn't get too used to Beomgyu's company because it could hit me hard when he passes. But I can't help it. I think I fell for him, and I really want to take that chance.

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The next morning, I ask my parents if I can go see Beomgyu. I don't know if he's still in school, so I was hesitant to go in the morning, but I want to go. There's a lot we need to talk about. While my father drives me to Beomgyu's house, I think about how I'm going to tell him how I feel. We literally just met yesterday, and he surely doesn't let many people in his heart knowing that he won't live to his 22nd birthday.

When we arrive at his house, Dad turns to me. "I know that you want to tell him how you feel today, but remember: his mother said you could come, but he might be slightly more tired and not want to see you this morning, just like he can suddenly shut you out, cause he doesn't seem like the kind of guy that would shout his pains from the rooftops. Also, you just met yesterday, I can't promise you that he'll accept you on the second, give him some time and do not rush him: he may not just be physically weak"

I nod and exit the car, my father behind me. When Beomgyu's mother lets us in, she has a smile on her face.

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I need an award for the worst ending ever, but the chapter was way too long