A New Type of Mafia Love

Chapter 61

Wyatt's POV

I should've just hand wrote letters and mailed them out. I'm so fucking stupid

"Hey Wy i figured you wouldn't wanna be alone. I know this is hard"

"You don't know anything" I interrupted him

"I don't know what you went through but I know all about suicide attempts"

"Have you every tried to kill yourself? Exactly" I said

"Actually I attempted 3 times. I failed or was saved each time. I know how it feels to be all alone. It's awful and I'm so sorry I didn't realize I should've seen the signs. I'm here for you, if you ever need to talk anytime of day or night just call and I'll bring you back to reality" he admitted

"How did you"

"Jumped off the roof, pills, and I hung myself"

"How old"

"7, 9, and 12"

"Why you were so young"

"I'm the youngest of 6 boys. Dad was always working and the guys didn't respect mom enough for her to discipline them. They hated how quickly I accepted Charlotte into our family. Well they hated me before then because mom took Adriana and left me. The twins, Ace, and their friend tormented me and I just couldn't take it"

"That must've been awful"

"It was but enough about me why did you wanna end things"

"I don't feel connected to my mom anymore and it hurts so much. I miss her everyday and after the school changed my schedule I felt so alone. I saw my friends branch out and I realized they could move on. Home life sucked because daddy was so fucking mad at me. Dad didn't say anything and I couldn't play soccer. If everyone could ignore me then that proved I wasn't something to be dwelled on"

"But you are it would've crushed all of us. You see how much you're hurting because your mom died 11 years ago. You would've passed on your pain to us and poor Noelle" I felt ashamed

"I'm not trying to make you feel bad cause that's the last thing you need. I just want to give you perspective. We all love you to death, your friends are talking to other people but they're still your family. You all exist in a mafia world you won't find friends realer than them. I'm certain that if you tell them about this they'll hug you and probably punch you after. I know life clouds our perception of things but if you ever feel this way you gotta speak up. There will always be someone to listen to you"

"I'm sorry"

"I already told you not to apologize. You did nothing wrong. We failed to see how much you were hurting and I promise I won't make that mistake ever again. Please forgive me" he asked with tears in his eyes and I nodded

"I think you should go to therapy it'll be good for you"

"I can try"

"Also you're gonna go back to playing soccer and I encourage you to talk to your friends. I know it's gonna be hard but take it from someone who's hid this for years. It feels awful bottling it up"

"Can you tell my dad about an incident that happened at school" he nodded and I explained the whole teacher thing. He looked furious but he remained calm

"Thanks I think I'm gonna go to bed now"

"Sure just let me check for dangerous things. It's a precaution" I nodded then he left after his search

Vincenzo's POV

"Why didn't you tell us" Alessio just came back down

He shrugged