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Anxiety HC

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how Natasha would help you with off days and anxiety:

• Natasha definitely would've had her fair share of anxiety and panic attacks, especially from joining S.H.I.E.L.D and the fall of it. The thought of anyone knowing what she had done broke her, and after a long time and time to herself had she managed to get it slightly under control. So when you and Natasha started dating, she had a few tricks up her sleeve to try and help you with yours.

• Her arms were always open, always. She didn't care what she was doing, if you ever needed her to hold you, she promised that she would always be there for you and she was, even if it was at a ridiculous time in the morning, she would always welcome you with open arms and soothing words in your ear as you held her close to you.

• She would definitely rub your thighs, because of your constant fidgeting and bouncy legs, it came to Natasha's attention that physical touch between you was what helped you calm down the easiest. Sometimes you didn't want it and she was more than okay to give you the space you needed but when I'm meetings or just in general, when she caught the sight of your jittery leg, her hand would come down ever so lightly on your thigh to try and help calm you down.

• During the night is when Natasha had discovered you suffer worse, at the time when you would have panic and anxiety attacks, though she would never push you away. Instead, she would pull you close to her, quite literally, she would lay you on top of her so the beating of her heart came into measures of your breathing. And she would just lay there her hand up the back of your shirt stroking your back to soothe you.

• After missions, Natasha was thankful that after missions you were the most clingy, unlike she was at first, it meant that you didn't push her away and let her tend to you like she wanted. She would pull you into the shower with her and hold you as you let out all your pent up emotions and thoughts out to her letting her take in all your words. And she would wait for the right thing to come to mind before speaking.

• When school became to much for you, Natasha would make sure you took a break from a studying, and would usually end up with you taking a nap, with the help of her taking to your about anything and everything or just reading a book. Your head would be perched on her heart listening to the sound of her voice, how delicate she speaks each word, lulling you to sleep.

• Natasha also knew the signs of your anxiety, small things you did that caught her eye: like playing with your jewellery, biting your nails, bouncy legs, the way your breathing would become laboured. Natasha knew you like the back of her hand and she made it her duty to if not being able to control your anxiety, to at least be there for you whilst going through it.

• She would always praise you for the little things you overcome, like ordering food, a presentation in front of the team, or leading a mission. Those are the things Natasha makes you strive for. Her sweet words brings a slight pink to your cheek and a small cloud of pride in your chest.

• Natasha is also very patient with you, if you didn't want to talk about something, she wouldn't push you for an answer, she would comfort you and tell you that you will be okay and that you aren't overreacting. Because she knew that eventually you would open up to her and the trust you have for her made her feel so precious.

• She always, always finds a way to distract you, weather that be in an intimate way or just a simple date to the ice cream shop and a walk around the park. Whenever your mind gets too full, she would book the day off and shower you in love and affection reminding you that you are enough.

• Natasha is always very defensive when it comes to you too. If she was to hear the team say a thing about you, she would make sure to remember they wouldn't forget the time they did. For example; Thor had been speaking to you during a party and you had accidentally knocked his drink over and he had shouted at you -clearly wasted- but you weren't having a great day to begin with and you felt tears come to your eyes and you scurried off. Tony had spoken up about you being too soft and it made Natasha snap. Not only did he spend the night in the infirmary but he also had to make up for it, by doing and getting you anything you want for the whole week. You didn't get him to do anything though it wants his doing. She also made Thor apologise and be at your service too, which you may or may not have used to get midnight snacks by getting him to fly places in the middle of the night. After beating them both up did she run to you and pull you in her arms.

• Natasha was the best girlfriend you could ask for, sometimes you think you don't deserve her but she would always make the excuse of you saving her, when in reality it was the other way around. But little did you know how much you meant to the redhead.

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it's okay not to be okay.
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