𝑰 𝒍𝒊𝒌𝒆 𝒉𝒊𝒎 (𝒑𝒍𝒖𝒔𝒔𝒊𝒛𝒆 𝒔𝒕𝒐𝒓𝒚)

chapter 2

Just got off the bus dj followed me talking shit the whole time when we left lunch about how much my favorite senior didn't like me n I was over it telling him "ok" n he still kept going talm bout he just wanna fuck me n stuff I was just like n dats ok I wanna fuck him too he doesn't run his mouth but I know he didn't say that because he doesn't talk to anybody.I just went home to my room and did my homework and went to sleep I got a sister and brother but we don't really talk or connect forreal I'd like to think this is normal because they call me fat too but it's like your momma fat, yo grandma fat, and yo daddy fat how you gotta problem with fat people and everybody in your family fat including you let it go it's not a good look that's self hate at the point.

I fell asleep after finishing 4 pages of work that I had to turn in tomar yea it's alot but my will to sleep peacefully was stronger and all I had to do was go wash when I woke up and eat probably ion know depends on how I feel. I woke up at 7pm and got my night clothes up my momma was off work now we never had the closest relationship I think I was a mistake she said I was supposed to have an older brother but he didn't survive n stuff I wish I did have an older brother at times because I be lost and don't kno what to do sometimes like right now I got colleges wanting me but I don't even know if I wanna go to college forreal I told my momma that as soon as it came in the mail and she was mad at me I just wanted to be honest because I really don't know I didn't expect to live this long.I go wash grabbing my phone n speaker I check our hallways n run to the bathroom locking it n cut on my speaker playing *lil durk-back in blood* it was friday night n my momma was bout to go out and my brother n sister to they friends or my aunt house for the weekend me I stayed home and watched movies my cousins don't really fuck with me like that I don't know why but it's cool I guess.

They always try me anyways we can't relate anyway they be fucking, talking about fucking, and just fucking plus drama these bitches fight over dick and I just can't relate I would never fight over no dick when that nigga prolly don't want neither one of us it's embarrassing so I just keep to myself I still don't have a car either I be ubering food bih shi lame buh if it ever came down to sumn I'd have to call a ride or ask to borrow my ma car I hate it but I'm not really good at saving money I gotta spending problem that whoever my husband gon be gon have to deal with.I spend when I'm sad, when I'm lost, when I'm mad, when I cry just everything but I do keep 40 or 20 on me just incase. I get out the shower drying off n unlocking the door n run to my room with my stuff locking my door I put on some lotion and deodorant than I put on sum Nike shorts and a hoodie checking my phone n go check my card seeing a good $295 I decide on going to get sum subs and doritos from my favorite spot I see my momma car keys n grab em n my bag seeing that she drove the truck imma drive the car n be back later or sumn.

I drive to the spot and get out fixing my shorts n stuff seeing a couple of people from school n roll my eyes but it was the weekend do yall thing than I go in the store and it's full I'm immediately aggravated n probably gon have to be aggressive because it's men too.I go grab me a little cran-apple juice out the store fridge and a bag of red doritos heading to get in line for the food so I can while I'm over there I get to the counter n say my phone number n somebody sit a blue Gatorade next to me on the counter and the girl reach for it I say "that's not mines boo and ion got no kids last time I checked either" I turn looking up to see who it was n freeze  for a minute than smile he nod at me I turn back around and he hand her 2 twenties I grab my bag and he grab his drink n change she just smile n shake her head at me. He grab my hand after we walk up out the store I stop n look back looking at him n he say "you busy?" I shake my head no he say "stay out wimme?" "ion be outside" n laugh a lil he walk wimme to the car n say "let's just go to park n I'll teach you how to play ball than " I smile n say "ok which park" "den's" I nod he back up looking at me and than turn going to his car and I get in mines smiling I crank up n drive off happy asf this is the most he's talked to me I think has to be. I go to the park leaving my food in the car and locking the door seeing not too many people here probably around just 2 I see him already here sitting on a table with his basketball I wave he say "ready?" I nod he get up licking his lips n grab my hand taking me infront of a goal n explain what we gon do first "we gon practice shooting from different angles first imma teach you how to make your shots count and position your hands ok?" I look at his face n say "ok" he nod and come stand behind me helping and give me the ball fixing my hands n in my neck and ear I listen to him closely "if you do your hands like-" I was outta there n my head smiling n hopping around boy ion really care about basketball..I care about you tho so imma do it he was so patient n sweet his voice was deep n low but it's like you wouldn't expect him to talk like that I mean I didn't expect him to talk at all but this is good. He was helping me make shots in da goal his face beside mines I could feel his shoulder length dreads touching the side of my face n him breathing it was..nice. he say "you ok? you got it ma?" "huh?" he want me to what give him his first son that's what you said nahh buh he chuckle in my ear n say "let's just take a break ". I nod following him to the bench it was probably around 8:50 now