*Ryan's POV*
-2 DAYS LATER-
This is ridiculous, why was she avoiding me? I was only trying to comfort her.
She hasn't even found out yet and it seems as though she has...
I'm going over there.
*Octavia's POV*
I haven't gotten out of bed in 4 days. I only got up to go to the bathroom, that was it.
All of the thoughts flooding my brain blocked all emotions and feelings. I wasn't hungry, nor tired.
I stayed up all night and all day just thinking about how much I hated myself.
Why couldn't I have treasured my time with my dad? I barely saw him and now he's gone. Just like mom.
I want to see Ryan so badly, but I knew I couldn't. As soon as I saw him again his eyes would cast his spell on me again. Again? Who am I kidding, I'm still under it.
It never went away, as much as I tried hiding it and putting the thoughts away, they always came rushing back no matter what.
I hear a loud knock on the door.
I knew it was him, so he'd soon figure out that the key was under the doormat where it always was when I didn't want to answer the door.
What the hell am I going to tell him.
*Ryan's POV*
I knock 3 times with still no response. She'd shown me that there was a key under the doormat once before, maybe it was still there?
I lift the doormat and there it was. I grab it and stick it in the doorknob and unlock the door.
I close and lock the door behind me and the apartment is untouched. Looks exactly how it was when I left her place the one night about 2 weeks ago.
I walk towards her room and see her underneath the covers.
"O-Octavia?" I stutter, she turns to me as I say her name.
"Hi." She says quickly.
I enter her room fully and stand there awkwardly.
"Are you o-" She cuts me off.
"No, I'm not okay. I hate the fact that my dad is gone and I never said goodbye, and he probably spent those last days not even able to know I was there. So his last memory of me was my angry voice over the phone, the phone. My last words weren't even face-to-face. And now you're here and I-" She stops herself.
"Why haven't you answer any of my calls or texts? I want to be here for you but it's hard when you block me out." I say sternly.
"I couldn't think about you anymore. When I think of you, all I can think about is the secret you aren't telling me an-" I cut her off like she did to me.
"What are you talking about?" I question.
"Brayden told me there was a reason why we weren't together, something on your part. I'm guessing it's because you finally realized that I'm a waste of time and I was always a mistake. My life is a mess, a brutal mess. I just-"
I walk closer to her and sit down on her bed next to her.
"Octavia, you are not a waste of time and you were never a mistake. You still aren't a mistake and never will be. I want to be here for you whenever you need me, don't forget that." I put my hand on her back.
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Choose // ChildDolphin FF [complete]
FanfictionEven when she tried her hardest to disconnect herself from him, he still managed to take over her mind. She had to choose, but she wanted him to make the choice...