It's been a few hours since we've left the clinic in an ambulance and now that I'm settled in a hospital bed in a semi-private room, it has become more of a reality that my babies will be delivered prematurely and the possibility of those complications that come with it is becoming more real. The guilt I feel for knowing I'm to blame for this because of my cheating on my bed rest orders is nauseating and heartbreaking. I don't know if I'll ever forgive myself if something happens to one or both of my babies.
I'm trying to stay hopeful and remind myself that I'm doing all that I can for my babies right now.
The other pregnant lady who's sharing this room with me has been moaning and groaning for the past half hour and as I stare blankly at the curtain dividing our beds, I let out a tired sigh. The light sound of Harry's snores coming from the foot of my bed lets me know he's asleep and I don't blame him.
It's only three in the afternoon, but this entire day, and most of the month, has been emotionally draining for both of us. If I weren't hooked up to so many beeping machines and laying on an inflatable mattress to prevent more blasted bed sores from forming, I could probably fall asleep, too.
"Hello? Anyone here who's awake? Please?" the lady next to me cries out, earning my attention.
"Uhm, I'm here. What's wrong? Need me to ring a nurse for you?" Quiet sobs fill the room and I stare at the curtain, waiting for a response that she doesn't give. "Are you okay, love?"
"No," she sniffs.
"I'll ring the nurse's station," I say, reaching for the button that's clipped to my bed sheet. "There. Someone will come to check on you soon enough."
"No y-you don't understand."
"What don't I understand? I thought you were in pain."
"Yeah, my heart is breaking into a million pieces."
"Oh, I'm sorry. You can tell me about it, if you want."
She sniffs, "It's my baby. I-I don't know if she'll make it."
"Oh, I'm sorry. She? You're having a girl?"
"Mhm. I'm thirty weeks along a-and she's not doing as well as my doctor would like."
"I'm sorry to hear that, love. I hope everything goes well for you and the baby."
"Thanks," she sniffs. "W-what are you h-having?"
"Twins. Two boys, to be exact. One of them isn't as strong as my doctor would like, so that's why we're here."
"Oh. I'm just so scared for my baby. She's my first."
"I'm sure the doctors will do everything in their power to help her. They've helped me with my twins not too long ago and now they're helping me again. This is my second stay this month." I glance down at my belly, smoothing my hand over my babies bump in between the fetal monitor straps. "I know their guardian angels will take good care of them. And your baby girl's guardian angel will take good care of her."
"H-how do you know?" her question catches me off guard and I take a second to think.
"Well, I guess I really don't know for sure, but I have faith. It's all I have to rely on now," I honestly say and she hums in acknowledgment. "I'm JJ, by the way, and my husband's name is Harry. He's the one over here who's snoring," I add for light humor, earning a quiet giggle. "What's your name?"
"Sophie."
"Sophie? That's one of the names we talked about when we first found out we were expecting. We didn't know what we were having, much less twins. I still think it's a pretty name. Have you picked out a name for your baby yet?"
YOU ARE READING
Blind Love
Fanfiction[Sequel to Blind Date] JJ and Harry have started their new life together as a married couple. Exciting things are in store for them, with a couple challenges to test the strength of their love, of course. Join JJ and Harry as they embark on this new...
