Loaded

until next time

I didn't think I would be upset at the prospect of never dancing topless for strangers again but as the end of my last shift at the club gets closer the more upset I get. It had never been my dream to dance and most nights I hate it but it's become a big part of my life. I like the control it gives me, I like watching men come undone as they watch me move. The money can be good but it's unreliable at least my new job will give me a basic salary each week plus commission.

I look in the full length mirror and I can't help but notice how much I've changed since I moved to new York. I've matured not only as a person but my body has matured too. The fact I've been able to eat what I want has given me curves that I never would have had back home. I'm happy, I like that I can do what I want with no one to answer to.

I change into a red pvc bodysuit, red wig and devil horns. Finally I place a delicate lace red masquerade mask on my face. I take a deep breath before I head to the stage. The MC announces my arrival and the fact that this will be my final dance. He's told the crowd all night that it's my last day at the club, safe to say the tips have been handsome. I've given more lapdances tonight than ever before, I expect my grand finale will be a real money maker.

The heavy rock song is so loud that I lose myself in the music, I dance like no one is watching. I'm not dancing for the money, Im dancing for me. I feel free, it's as good as the first time I took to the stage. I had ofcourse been nervous but the nerves had melted way when the music started and the green notes filled the stage.

The music is over much too soon, I collect the money and head backstage. I throw my cash in my bag and head to the shower, I spend way too longer under the steamy water but it's the last time I'll use the shower here I tell myself. I change into a silver sequin dress and leave my curls to dry naturally. I walk back into the changing room and  greeted by all the girls who are cheering for me. I take a seat at my bench and re do my make up as I promise my work colleagues I will stay in touch, I do plan on remaining friends with these women.

It's after one so I decide not to stall any longer, I grab the bags that contain my outfits and make up and leave the club. I feel like I will cry but I manage to keep them at bay.

"You were amazing, what a great final show" Darcy says as he approaches, I kiss the security on the cheek and tell him I'm ok before hugging Darcy and walking with him to the limo.

"I'll take those Miss" his driver takes the large bags from my grasp as I enter the limo.

"I didn't see you, I thought you had changed your mind"

Darcy smiles and shakes his head " I wouldn't have missed it for the world"

"Adam could you take us to miss Gilmore's apartment so we can drop off her belongings and then to the blue room"

"Right away sir" Adam replies as we start to drive through the streets.

Darcy runs his hand across my thigh, his fingers are so gentle.

"HR have had to send an email out regarding gross misconduct at the ball last night" he says with a devilish grin.

"Why what happened"

"Didn't you hear, it was all anyone talked about all night"

How could I have missed it, these aren't even my colleagues but I want to hear the gossip.

"A ruggedly handsome man was performing cunning Lingus on a hot blonde in the cloakroom"

I cover my mouth with my hand, I'm dying to laugh. I had heard our table discussing it but hadn't realised the word had spread throughout the whole party.

"Cunning Lingus" I tease.

"Well I couldn't write licking pussy on the email" I'm glad to see that he sees the humour in it.

"So what does the email say exactly " I ask.

I straddle him and kiss his neck as he tries his best to dictate the email word by word.

"It has come to our attention that some attendees at the summer ball were behaving in an inappropriate way. While we do not care what you do in the privacy of your own  home we do not appreciate hearing that our staff have been performing cunning Lingus while at a corporate event while representing our company" he splutters and stops as I move my hands to the zip of his pants.

"Was that word for word"

He shakes his head, he pushes down the straps of my dress and frees my breasts, he cups me in his hands before covering my nipple with his mouth. He pulls my hands from his zip and pushes me down against the leather seat, he climbs on me before pulling my thong down my legs. He thrusts his fingers inside me as I pull his head down so our lips can meet.

"Your so beautiful" he moans mid kiss. His fingers move with purpose as he thrusts them inside me. He brings me close to ecstacy then stops suddenly, he sits up and readjusts himself. He pulls me so I'm upright and helps me cover my body, I notice he pockets my panties.

"Why did you stop" I ask.

Seconds later there's a sharp knock on the door, Darcy smiles at me.

"Were at your place"

Adam opens the door, he hands my bags to Darcy who surprises me by leaving the limo.

"Your coming up"I ask.

"Yeah I want to see you safely to the door"

Darcy greets butch as he enters, I throw my bags on the bed and quickly walk back to the door. Darcy kisses my cheek and heads for the door.

"I'll see you next week"

"Your leaving"

"Yeah"

"I thought you said we were going to the blue room after I dropped my things off"

Darcy looks confused "it's a gentleman's club,no women allowed"

I'm mad I had assumed we were going to spend the night together, I didn't think he would just give me a ride home and leave.

I follow Darcy out of the door, he doesn't realise until we're on the street.

"Where are you going" he asks.

I shrug "out"