Amethyst || Harry Styles

Forty-six

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Forty-six

"What the hell is that noise?" I vaguely hear someone say. I lie in bed confused out of my mind from what is happening. But as I groan and rub my eyes, I suddenly realize that it's my phone ringing.

I see Jasmine turn around and duck under the covers as my phone keeps going off. But by the time I reach for it, the ringing stopped. I look at the screen to see who called me, and when my brain processes who it is, I immediately freeze up.

"What the fuck?" I can't help but say, my heart starting to pound heavily.

"What is it?" Jasmine asks, sitting up besides me as she looks at my iPhone screen. "Is it that bitch again?" She asks. I just nod my head, too shocked to say anything. Before I know it, my phone is ringing again, Nicole calling me once more. "Here, give it to me."

"It's okay," I hold onto Jasmine's hand that is reaching for my phone. "I can answer it."

"Are you sure?"

"Yeah." I take a deep breath. "But can you please wake up Ella for me, I don't want her to be late for school."

"Of course." Jasmine says and kisses my cheek. She reluctantly gets out of bed and goes out of the room after giving me one last glance.

I climb out of bed and walk over to the door, closing it as I take a deep breath. I look down at my phone, biting on my lip from fear. I press the answer button, and as soon as I do that, I have a sudden moment of panic. I manage to calm myself down by taking another deep breath as I raise the phone to my ear.

"Harry?" I hear Nicole's voice. I million thoughts are swarming inside of my mind. I'm scared and worried as to why she is calling me.

"Mhmm." I reply, my voice coming out harsh. I wait a few seconds for her to reply, but she doesn't say a word. "Why are you calling me, Nicole?"

"I'm so sorry, Harry. I was so stupid when I was younger. I'm so sorry for abandoning on you and our daughter." The way she says 'our daughter' makes me cringe. Ella is my daughter, not hers.

"You only realize that six years later?" I bitterly laugh.

"Yes," She says sadly. "It has always haunted me in the past, but now that I am pregnant again, it is haunting me so much more." I stay silent. "Every day I wished I stayed with you. Every day I wished I could have stood up to my parents. Every day I wished I could have learned to love the baby and watch her grow into a beautiful person. But I can't do anything anymore because that's the past, and I am so sorry." She sniffles. I still stay silent, not knowing what to say. "I know what I did was horrible— if I were you, I would hate myself too. But I am a different person now and all I want is another chance. I just want to see her and you, Harry. Just one time."

I close my eyes tightly, not knowing what to do. As much as I want to say no to her, I just can't. She knew the mistakes she has done, and it actually pains me slightly knowing that it was— and is still constantly haunting her. She is Ella's mother after all, and if just by seeing Ella once will help her recover from the trauma she put on herself, then I can't say no— that would just be a horrible thing to do on my part. But at the same time, I want to protect Ella and shield her from pain and hurt.

"Okay." I simply say, not believing myself that I'm actually agreeing to this.

"Oh my god, thank you so much, Harry." She cries.