Ryden Oneshots

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.:. Rating : NC-17 .:.

Summary: When a concerned Jon Walker shows up at Brendon Urie's doorstep, he tries to convince Brendon to get his ex-bandmate and past lover help from his drug habits. In the span of a week, Brendon stays at Ryan's house and attempts to find him help but instead becomes close to his old friend again and procrastinates until it's too late.

Warnings: suicide attempt, drug use, infidelity

It’s Jon who approaches Brendon about it. He’s visiting from Chicago, from his little townhouse and his pets and his wife and his kid, and he just so happens to show up at Brendon’s door, hands shoved deep in his pockets and a lazy smile on his lips.

And, sure, Brendon might maybe still hold a grudge, but he’s a mature adult and tells Jon to come in, to sit down, and asks him if he wants anything.

“Oh, no. Nah, that’s fine,” Jon replies, craning his neck to see around the room. His eyes land on a collage of photographs Sarah put out. Most are from the wedding, Sarah and him smiling broadly with family members, but some are older, from when they first met, when Brendon was still going through some stuff. There are none of the band, only a small framed photograph of Spencer and Brendon.

“So,” Brendon mumbles awkwardly. His fingers feel restless and involuntarily move by themselves, tapping a quick tempo onto his knees.

“Look, we need to talk,” Jon says, and Brendon can deal with this, but then he goes, “About Ryan.”

Brendon freezes, fingers stopping dead. He knows he should really be over this, that he’s answered a million and two questions about Ryan in interviews since the split, and he’s joked about him with his friends, and he’s even talked to Ryan a few times, but something about the tone in Jon’s voice means that this isn’t going to be the quiet, tapered version of what he usually talks about.

Jon doesn’t wait for a reply before saying, “I’m really worried about him, Brendon. I’ve talked to him a few times and he doesn’t seem okay. Like, worse than the last time.”

Brendon hasn’t even talked to Jon about the last timebefore. Right before the demise of his band, Ryan wasn’t well. He didn’t know how to deal with losing Keltie, losing the band, or watching his own baby, the band he ruined everything for, fail. No one was surprised to see him worsen his drug habits. If there was one thing Ryan could do, it was spiral. Brendon did nothing to help, either. It wasn’t his business anymore.

One time after Ryan’s band went on hiatus, when he was so high he didn’t even know what he was doing, he showed up at Brendon’s house. He was nearly crying, apologizing profusely to Brendon as Sarah listened, eyeing Brendon with worry. Brendon ended up calling Ryan a cab and sending him home, spending at least ten minutes pushing him in and telling him it was going to be okay. Brendon knows he should have tried to help Ryan, but he felt too far gone already

After you cut ties with a guy like Ryan, you don’t go back.

Now, here was Jon, so worried that he was willing to put away all of our differences, the ones that they didn’t have so long ago, when they were all so close they refused to talk to anyone else, and Brendon was really hoping Jon wasn’t going to be asking much of Brendon.