RYENNE

[ 3.25 ] - Intermediate: Dream

Intermediate: Dream

[ 3.25 ]

R Y E N N E  A T S T E L L I

『 Year 12 』

Slowly, I walked down an unfamiliar corridor as I felt the eyes of strangers stare and whisper amongst themselves. The contempt in their eyes were poorly disguised as they wore mocking smiles on their faces.

"What a pity for a girl with such a pretty face." A girl had whispered to her friend, but her voice was loud and I could clearly hear the disgust layered in her tone.

The girl held her head high, but even though I tried to see what she looked like, her face was blank. Despite the haze, it wasn't hard to figure out that the girl would have a stunning face. Many of the figures standing around paid attention to her, their eyes filled with warmth and admiration. It was the complete opposite of their attitude towards me and yet I had no idea who any of them were.

A giggle echoed through the corridors as the girl's friend laughed and pointed at my feet. "What even are those! That's so embarrassing."

Subconsciously I looked down at my own two feet to see what it was and saw a pair of dirty and worn out shoes. I slightly furrowed my brows and glanced around at the shoes of the other students. There was a clear different between the two.

Almost immediately, the bystanders burst out into laughter as they watched me with disdain. Quickly I became the center of attention and their hateful eyes followed my every move.

Unconsciously, I lowered my eyes and kept my focus on the floor in front of me.

I couldn't understand why they would hold such contempt towards me. Had I done something wrong? If I did then what was it? Or was it because of my shoes?

As I trudged forward, I tried to look for a familiar figure, but all I saw were blank faces with scornful smiles.

I stopped walking as I looked on, absentmindedly. It all felt so real and yet I had never met these people. I had never interacted with them one bit, so why were they here in front of me, without faces and without names. I couldn't recognize a single one of them and yet it all felt so familiar to me. This feeling, I—

I opened my eyes and stared at my ceiling in the dark. My chest heaved up and down as I tried to catch my breath, slowly bringing my hands up to my eyes, feeling the hot tears that streamed down the sides of my face.

I turned onto my side as I pulled my covers over my head, silently sniffling as I pursed my lips and tried to calm myself down.

What was that dream? Why did it feel so real—as if it actually happened?

An hour passed before I was finally able to calm down and I got out of bed. Heading towards my desk, I pulled out an unused journal as I recounted my dream and wrote it down.

Although the scenery and people were unfamiliar, those interactions felt too close to my heart to say it didn't happen. It wasn't exactly like the treatment I've been receiving from Xael's fangirls, but the distaste in their eyes were the same.

Is my existence really so hateful?

I furrowed my brows as I let out a tired sigh, resting my head on my desk as I stared out into my large window.

I couldn't understand this sudden change in my life—how it could go from being so happy and carefree to a dark pit of unknown within a few weeks.

Another sigh escaped my lips as I lightly shut my swollen eyes, once again falling asleep.

『 18 June x029 』

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Author's note:
Before writing this chapter, I thought long and hard about what I should write and I think it's finally starting to go in the direction I've been wanting it to. Also, this won't be going up the day I wrote it unlike usual so I guess when I come back and upload it, I'd be reflecting on this stressful time. Anyways, I finished a batch of my college applications. Kind of exciting and kind of scary, but I think I'm ready for a new chapter in my life to start. I just gotta get through this year!

Question:
Any thoughts or ideas about this chapter?

28.10.2020