severus snape imagines 🐍❤️

• Exile •

Based on Taylor Swift's Exile (ft. Bon Iver)
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Severus did not want to be here. At that moment, he would rather to be in the Malfoy manor with the Death Eaters instead of being in the order meeting, knowing that you would be there. He brought himself there with a heavy heart, telling himself that as soon as the meeting ended, he would leave without having to see or talk to you.

However, he found himself staying for dinner after the meeting. It was so unusual of him to stay, but he just could not bring himself to leave. No, he was too awestruck to see you. It had been a few months since the harsh break up, and Severus admitted that he was still in love with you.

He watched from across the table as your lips curled into an enchanting smile, which used to lift his spirits after a long day but now it was a smile for another man instead of him. His heart clenched when Remus wrapped his arms around you, saying something that made you laugh, as if he just told you the funniest joke you had ever heard.

Severus scoffed, thinking how easy it was for you to find another man while he was stuck in his love for you. He loved you, in fact he would never stopped loving you. He wanted you, but he knew you were the one who walked away from him, leaving him with whatever left of your ruined relationship. He would always hold on dear to the love that he had for you, no matter how far you left him.

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I can see you standin', honey
With his arms around your body
Laughin' but the joke's not funny at all
And it took you five whole minutes
To pack us up and leave me with it
Holdin' all this love out here in the hall
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Jealousy crawled over his chest as he realised that you were happy, too happy, without him. Severus knew he had no right to be jealous with Remus, he had his chance and he lost it. You were no longer his love, but he could never deny how strong his feelings were for you.

Seeing Remus taking care of you and making sure that you were content; it ticked him off. It was supposed to be his job to make you happy, not Remus. But then again, Severus told himself that you were no longer his.

How ironic it was for him to despise your smile, while he used to adore it so much. It pulled on his heartstrings when he noticed that your smile was not for him, and perhaps he was being selfish, but he wished you would give your smile to him just like old days.

You were his everything, the one that kept him going without any doubts. He always found comfort in your arms, making him feel like nothing could harm him as long as you were there with him. He wanted to defend you now, taking you away from the man that was holding you, but he could not.

You were not his everything anymore.

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I think I've seen this film before
And I didn't like the ending
You're not my homeland anymore
So what am I defendin' now?
You were my town
Now I'm in exile seein' you out
I think I've seen this film before
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He wanted to hate you. He wanted to hate you for making him have faith in love again. He had his boundaries, and he was not going to let anyone break down his walls but then you came. You made your way into his lonely life, melting his stone cold heart and turned it into your home.

You warmed his heart and his home, chasing his loneliness away and replaced it with love and affection that you brought. His doubts were no longer there as his mind was filled with the thoughts of you every day. Severus fell in love with you, and he believed that this time, he would not get his broken like before.

You were different from her, and you would stand by him forever.

Oh, Severus had never been so wrong in his life.