TejRan Post BB15

Cant Live Without You

Kk held her tight. Kissed her on the cheeks.

Kk- But i m here for u now.

This line just broke the last wall she had put for herself. To protect her vulnerable side. She knew he was the one. She knew he meant it when he said he will be there. But its wasnt easy for her to be vulnerable in front of anyone. Years of training herself to be independent n hiding her pain wasnt gonna disappear easily.

Teju- I know u r there for me. I m lucky to have u in my life. Its just that aadat nahi hai pain share karne ki.

Kk- But if u cant share ur pain with me. If u cant be vulnerable around me then how will we ever get close?

Teju- We already r close na sunny. This is my issue. Nots urs or ours.

Kk left the hug. He went back. Held tejus chin n looked straight into her beautiful big eyes.

Kk- Ms tejasswi prakash wyangkar. Whatever we have our happiness , our pain our issues or problems our life is ours. Not u n not me. Teri problems meri n meri problems teti hai aur rahegi.

Teju looked down. She didn't want to cry again. She was already kinda dissapointed at herself for telling all those things that she did.
She had never discussed them or said it out loud to anyone. She knew the day she put out these feelings may not be as strong as she was.

Kk- Just cos u told me all this doesnt mean u won't be strong. U will still be.

Teju immediately looked up. She was thinking how did he read her thoughts.

Kk- Aise mat dekh mujhe. Pata hai mujhe what u r thinking. Main bhi aisa hi hoon. Infact tha. But tujhe milne ke baad change ho gaya.

Teju- I m trying. I do trust u sunny. Its not about u or what we have.. I feel if i start sharing my pain i will..

Kk- kya? That u will not be able to hide it anymore.?? Hiding ur pain doesnt make u stronger teju. U r strong cos u chose to only share ur happiness.

Kk- I promise u baby i will always be there for u.

Teju- But if i start sharing everything na. Sunny toh i will end up being an emotional fool. N fir tu tolerate nahi kar paayega mujhe..

With this she again started crying.

Kk- So u r scared i will go away if u cry too much?? Is that what u think of me?

Teju- U fell for a bubbly happy go lucky girl which i m but i also have a very emotional side which i dont want coming out.

Teju- Bb house mein woh side bahar aane laga tha. Everyone used to make fun of me n call it a sympathy card. U also used to call it RR.

Kk looked down. He realsied what she meant.

Teju- Maine bahot bahot try kiya to not let that side out. N looking at everyone's reaction i felt miserable. That was the first time somehow i let myself go but i realised that it turned me into looking like a fool.

Kk- its not like that.

Teju- No sunny. It is. Ek point ke baad na fir sabko lagta hai ye toh roti hi rehti hai. U remember we had the big fight n i cried so much but tu puchne bhi nahi aaya cos u too were pissed.

Teju- I was hurt that u didnt bother to ask me or console me when i m crying. Cos baaki logo ka pata nahi but i dont cry easy. Bahot years ki practise hai in controlling my tears.

Kk- But i apologised to u later. I thought we were over it.

Teju- We r over it. M just telling u that during those days in bb house i was vulnerable n there were days when u were with me n when u werent.