I'm not okay

Chapter twenty-four

I'm alone in a house with murderous brothers.

Oh god.

I hug the blanket close to me as the intro of the movie starts.

I take deep breaths wanting to calm down.

I shouldn't be scared.

Like Acey told me, I shouldn't be scared of them because they only hurt people who hurt other people.

Does that mean that someone will hurt my brothers because they hurt bad people.

Oh no

I don't want my brothers hurt.

I don't want them to be in pain.

I look around at my brothers as they watch the screen closely while sometimes glancing back at me to make sure I'm okay.

I slowly relax in my seat more and more and eventually lean against Silas while watching the movie intensity.

I immediately try to get back up, so I won't make him uncomfortable and I don't know. What if he hurts me because of it.

But that doesn't happen.

Instead Silas brings me closer to him again before kissing my head, "it's okay Les, I won't hurt you" he tells me

I don't respond but I do snuggle tighter against him.

I can see him smile.

He's happy, he won't hurt me.

As the first song on the screen comes to an end, I make a mental note to add that song to my playlist.

Leo on the other side of me slowly takes my hand in his while also placing a bowl with all kinds of snacks in my lap so I can eat from it if I want.

I smile lightly as even more of my previous fear disappears into thin air.

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This morning I had another chemo therapy session and I haven't been able to properly walk from it yet.

I don't think I will though.

I feel different

The pain and weakened feeling is worse then before.

I feel worse then normally.

I feel really sick.

I woke up a few seconds ago.

I suddenly feel the extreme need to throw up again.

I weakly cry out for Dominic who's sitting next to me since the others are asleep since it's night.

He immediately turns to me alert, "hey, what's wrong princess?" He asks me.

"T-throw up" I say while just in time swallowing it back down but immediately feel it come back up again.