Best Friends Forever

Chapter 50: Staying Strong

Vanessa's POV:
Three weeks later, I get a call from the Doctor saying i'm cleared to compete. I text Matt and Lita
Group Message:
Lita Matt guess what?
My brother is coming back to work?
Not your brother Matt, me! I got cleared today! :D
That's great! Are you okay with leaving Jeff and Cameron?
Crap!
What's wrong?
I don't want to leave Cameron yet.
Why not?
Lita Matt my work is far from over.
You want to stay for Jeff?
Matt, it's not your brother, it's the power of music.
Yeah. Lita knows about the power of music and how it's helping your brother out.
Music is helping my brother out?
Yeah.
I hope Jeff listens to the song I recored for him last night.
Knowing Jeff he's probably in the studio listening to it right now. ;)
I race to the studio and I see Jeff listening to my song.
Lita, you're right. I'll ttygl.
As Jeff looks at me, I hug him. The hug gets returned.
Jeff's POV:
After we break out of the hug, Vanessa tells me she got cleared. I look at her in shock. I start to panic. After I calm down, I ask her to record one more song.
Vanessa's POV:
I look at Jeff heartbroken that i'm cleared. I get into the booth and I pour my heart into the song.
You got me sippin' on something
I can't compare to nothing
I've ever known, I'm hoping
That after this fever I'll survive
I know I'm acting a bit crazy
Strung out, a little bit hazy
Hand over heart, I'm praying
That I'm gonna make it out alive
The bed's getting cold and you're not here
The future that we hold is so unclear
But I'm not alive until you call
And I'll bet the odds against it all
Save your advice 'cause I won't hear
You might be right but I don't care
There's a million reasons why I should give you up
But the heart wants what it wants
The heart wants what it wants
You got me scattered in pieces
Shining like stars and screaming
Lighting me up like Venus
But then you disappear and make me wait
And every second's like torture
Heroin drip, no more so
Finding a way to let go
Baby, baby, no, I can't escape
The bed's getting cold and you're not here
The future that we hold is so unclear
But I'm not alive until you call
And I'll bet the odds against it all
Save your advice 'cause I won't hear
You might be right but I don't care
There's a million reasons why I should give you up
But the heart wants what it wants
The heart wants what it wants
The heart wants what it wants
The heart wants what it wants
This is a modern fairytale
No happy endings
No wind in our sails
But I can't imagine a life without
Breathless moments
Breaking me down, down, down, down
The bed's getting cold and you're not here
The future that we hold is so unclear
But I'm not alive until you call
And I'll bet the odds against it all
Save your advice 'cause I won't hear
You might be right but I don't care
There's a million reasons why I should give you up
But the heart wants what it wants
The heart wants what it wants
The heart wants what it wants
The heart wants what it wants
The heart wants what it wants, baby
It wants what it wants, baby
It wants what it wants
It wants what it wants
Jeff leaves the studio heartbroken. I'm on the wall crying. I don't want to leave Jeff my heart wants to stay an extra week. I look around the house for Jeff and I find him in the kitchen. with a box of PopTarts opened. I race back to the studio and I record another song.
I'm staring out into the night,
Trying to hide the pain.
I'm going to the place where love
And feeling good don't ever cost a thing.
And the pain you feel's a different kind of pain.
Well I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old,
So I'm going home.
Well I'm going home.
Jeff enters the booth and sings
The miles are getting longer, it seems,
The closer I get to you.
I've not always been the best man or friend for you.
But your love remains true.
And I don't know why.
You always seem to give me another try.
I sing the chorus
So I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old,
Jeff sings the bridge
Be careful what you wish for,
'Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all,
And then some you don't want.
Be careful what you wish for,
'Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all, yeah.
I finish the song
Oh, well I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old.
I said these places and these faces are getting old,
So I'm going home.
I'm going home.
I say goodbye to Cameron as my bus leaves my phone buzzes.
Text Conversation:
Hey Vanessa, did you leave Cameron?
Hey Lita, I did. :(
Aw!
I wish I didn't leave my <3 wanted me to say and help Jeff out more
You're a hero to a lot of people that's why Matt wanted your help with Jeff. I just wanted you to know that you have a really great talent bestowed apon you! Your heart is the best thing you have! You took a bad situation and made it great! Matt saw your Instagram and he's proud of you.
After I sent my last message to Lita, my phone chimes. It's a Jeff text.
Text Conversation:
Hey Vanessa, I miss you.
Hey Jeff, I miss you too.
How are you?
I'm okay. How are you?
On the verge of a relapse.
Jeff, you're so tough you can do this don't relapse. Just stay strong!
I can't stay strong the last song we did broke my <3.
Aw! I'm sorry. Sometimes staying strong means looking at something to remind you that i'm always with you.
What are you talking about?
I left a blanket in the studio. We shared it when you were going through withdrawals.
I was cold?
Yeah. I texted Matt in a panic I also hugged you.
Did I return the hug?
You did.
Thanks for everything. :D
You're welcome! :D
I have to go. Stay beautiful.
Stay strong and i'll ttyl.
As my bus pulls into the Thomas and Mack Center, the WWE Universe is clapping and welcoming me home. I sneak in through the back and i'm almost to my locker room when five stets of arms wrap around me. John, Zack, Dean, Seth and Roman went for a group hug. In the locker room it was a welcome back party. I look around the party I see Matt and Lita they group hug me. Sara and the rest of the Tough Enough crew welcome me back. I leave the locker room.
I start to panic and pace the floor.
Matt's POV:
I see a worried Divas Champion pacing the floor. I hug her and we talk.
Vanessa's POV:
Matt and I start talking before the WWE Universe gets here. I hug Matt as I leave to grant my first make a wish. I'm thinking about Jeff so much my phone rings. It's an assistant telling me that Jeff was admitted to a Cameron hospital. I start to cry and rush out of the arena. Matt is following me. I text Lita.
Text conversation:
Lita, Jeff is in the hospital I think he relapsed!
Omg! :'( All the hard work you did is gone.
I knew I should have stayed an extra week! I'm so mad at myself! I'm on my way back to Cameron!
What about Raw?
Forget Raw! Jeff needs me I care about him!
Wait you said you care about Jeff?
Yeah. Omg! I care because of a CRUSH! :o
Wow! Girl you have to tell Jeff!
I ponder how i'm going to play this off.
Lita, I can't tell Jeff how I feel it'll be so weird! :p Matt and I are talking to Stephanie to see if we could jet to Cameron to see Jeff.
Okay have a safe ride.
As I read that message Matt and Stephanie talk. We get the green light and we're on my bus. As Matt and I settle in we sit in silence and ponder what happened to Jeff.
I text somebody it gets turned into a group chat
Group Message:
Hey, Matt here.
Hey Matt, it's Edge.
How's Haven?
It's great! Heard about Jeff. Man that sucks.
Yeah it does.Vanessa put the power of music to the test and that didn't help :(
Aw! How is our favorite Haven guest star doing?
I'm trying so hard not to cry right now. I knew I should have stayed an extra week!
You didn't know a relapse was going to happen.
I also have a crush on Jeff that's making a friendship with him complicated.
A crush on anybody is complicated. If I was in your size 7.5 shoes I would do my best to get over the crush and try to make my brother stronger.
Thanks, Matt. :D
Aw no problem. :D
As the chat ends, Matt and I curl up and watch a movie. Ted was on FX and we were singing the thunder buddy song. A storm started outside scaring Matt. I nod at him and we sing a different song.
Just a small town girl
Livin' in a lonely world
She took the midnight train goin' anywhere
Just a city boy
Born and raised in South Detroit
He took the midnight train goin' anywhere
A singer in a smokey room
The smell of wine and cheap perfume
For a smile they can share the night
It goes on and on and on and on
Strangers waiting
Up and down the boulevard
Their shadows searchin' in the night
Streetlight, people
Livin' just to find emotion
Hidin' somewhere in the night
Workin' hard to get my fill
Everybody wants a thrill
Payin' anythin' to roll the dice
Just one more time
Some will win, some will lose
Some are born to sing the blues
And now the movie never ends
It goes on and on and on and on
Strangers waiting
Up and down the boulevard
Their shadows searchin' in the night
Streetlight, people
Livin' just to find emotion
Hidin' somewhere in the night
Don't stop believin'
Hold on to that feelin'
Streetlight, people
Don't stop believin'
Hold on to that feelin'
Streetlight, people
Don't stop!
As the bus pulls into the hospital, Matt and I race inside.
Matt's POV:
I ask the nurse what room Jeff is in. They look at me and say 2316. Vanessa and I go down the hallway to room 2316. I see my brother and I talk to him. I feel really crummy that my brother is here. I leave the room and we head home.
Vanessa's POV:
Matt and I race inside the house and I go to the studio and I see the blanket. I see the emptiness of the house and I start to cry. Matt hears the cries and comforts me. He suggests a song to stop the pain. I agree. I get in the booth and I sing.
There's nothing I could say to you
Nothing I could ever do to make you see
What you mean to me
All the pain, the tears I cried
Still you never said goodbye and now I know how far you'd go
I know I let you down but it's not like that now
This time I'll never let you go
I will be all that you want and get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day and make everything okay
I thought that I had everything I didn't know what life could bring
But now I see honestly
You're the one thing I got right
The only one I let inside
Now I can breathe 'cause you're here with me
And if I let you down I'll turn it all around
Cause I would never let you go
I will be all that you want and get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day and make everything okay
Cause with out you I can't sleep
I'm not gonna ever ever let you leave
You're all I got
You're all I want
Yeah
And without you I don't know what I'd do
I could never ever live a day with out you
Here with me do you see you're all I need
And I will be all that you want and get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life I will be with you forever
To get you through the day and make everything okay
I will be all that you want and get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
And all my life you know I will be with you forever
To get you through the day and make everything okay
After Matt saves the song, we go to sleep.