Wishes |c.d.|

29.

Emily's pov

The ride back home was silent. I was still very upset. My mind was flooding with thoughts. I had a dull expression on my face, like I was the most depressed person in the world, I felt like it. I gave Cameron all my heart, all my love, everything I had. I should have never trusted him. He eventually thought me something I should have learned myself a long time ago. Never trust guys with your heart and feelings. They just think that thy are toys to play with. Every man in my life was a disappointment. First my father, then Noah, and now he was added to the list. I never felt so empty.

"Are you any better?" Matt spoke up, breaking the silence. "No" I said, holding back my tears. "I'm sorry y'all had to see this." I said, referring to mine and Cameron's fight. "Don't worry about it. Its okay, all couples argue" he said reassuringly. "Not like that. Matthew, Cameron and I are over" I stated, my voice shaky as I spoke the words. It hurt me to say that. "I'm sorry" he said apologetically. "It's not your fault that his a jackass. Don't be sorry" I looked outside the window. "I'm sorry you have to go through this. Trust me, if I could take all the pain away, I'd do it for you" he looked at me with a sympathetic look, before returning his eyes on the road.

It was dark outside. "Why would he do this? Am I not good enough for anyone?" I asked, as more tears slipped down my cheeks. "No no no. Don't say that. Emily Thomas, you're the most perfect, amazing and beautiful girl I've ever met. I don't want you to think of yourself anything less than that. You're honestly so precious, it breaks my heart to see you cry. You're a gift this world. I'm so glad I met you. I want you to love yourself. You're incredible and you should know that" he said, and I could believe the words that were leaving his mouth.

I was left speechless. I had no idea Matt thought of me this way. His words were so touching. "Matthew... I- I don't know what to say. Thank you" I said looking at him. I noticed us driving past my house. "Hey where are you taking me?" I furrowed my eyebrows. "You'll see" smirked and continued driving.

We were driving for about 25 more minutes until the car came to a stop. "Get out" he said. "Are you leaving me here?"  my eyes widened. "No, dumbass. Get out of the car, I want to show you something" he laughed, stepping out of the car. I got out too. "Matt it's cold! Can't we go back home?" I whined. He took off his sweater and threw it at me, leaving him in just a tee shirt. "No Matt. Its freaking December for God's sake. You'll get sick or something if you stay in the cold like that. I'm fine, take it back" I threw the sweater back at him.

I wasn't cold, I just tried to use it as an excuse for us to leave. "Follow me" he said and walked ahead of me. I followed behind him in a quick pace. "Where are we anyway?" I asked. We were walking up a hill. "Just wait" he turned and smiled at me. I sigh, knowing I had no chances of convincing him to go back. When we reached the top of the hill, I couldn't believe in my eyes. "It's beautiful isn't it?" he said, sitting on the ground. "It is" I followed his actions, still staring at the view in awe. You could see the whole city from up there. The lit up streets full of people, the cars driving. It was simply beautiful.

"Why did you bring me here?" I asked. "Well, I usually come here when I want to get away from everything and everyone. I just feel so peaceful" he explained. I nodded in response. We just sat there, admiring the view. "Sometimes I forget that there is so much more going on except for our lives. Whenever I come here, I remember that I'm just one small dot in an ocean of people" he stopped for a minute. "It makes me feel like, just maybe, my problems aren't so big and serious after all. I mean, look at all those people. Who knows what goes in in their lives" he speaks.

"Thanks Matt. You're always there for me, I'll never be able to pay you back for this" I said, pecking his cheek. "You don't need to. I just want to make sure you are always ok" he smiled back at me. "Come on, let's get going now." he stood up, dusting off his jeans. I stood up to and we walked together back to the car.

Once we reached my house, he parked the car in the driveway. "Call me if you need anything" he smiled and gave my hand a small squeeze. I nodded in response, and stepped out of the car. I waved at him as he pulled out of the driveway and drove away. I sighed to myself, as I spun on my heel and speed walked towards my house. But I stopped at my trucks once I noticed a person sitting on the steps of my porch.

At first I couldn't recognise who it was, with their head hanging low. He looked up at me with puffy red eyes. I rolled my eyes, that started watering again once I saw him. "What do you want here?" I spat angrily. "You didn't let me explain" he spoke, his voice just above a whisper. "I know that. And I don't want to hear your lies. Cameron leave right now" I said, closing my eyes and trying to control my temper. "I'm not going anywhere before you let me explain" he stood up, his hands balled into fists.

"Alright then, I guess you'll be sleeping out here tonight" I said coldly, as I walked past him, purposely bumping my shoulder on him. "Emily" he grabbed ahold of my wrist. I took in a deep breath. "I'm sorry" his voice was shaky, like he was about to cry. "You should have thought of that before you go cheat on me. Really Cameron?" I hissed.

"Baby, just please give me a chance" he pleaded. My heart was aching, I wanted to turn around and tell him how much I love him, but I just couldn't. I couldn't even look at him after what he did. "Don't call me that. I've run out of chances Cameron. And I'm tired of getting hurt. I don't want to see you again. Its over" I said, and took out my keys to unlock the door. "No, no, no. Don't say that, please Emily don't leave me" he cried, and it was breaking me to hear him cry. "Emily, I- I love you" he said, and those words brought more tears in my eyes. How could he say that? "I'm sorry, I don't believe you" I shook my head, unlocking the door. "Bye Cameron" I said, getting inside my house before shutting the door behind me.