Zephyr: The Elemental Clans

18 - Coming to Terms

Xyder Zephyr - POV;

"What did you drag me out here for?" I asked, annoyed.

"Will you give it a break already?!" Evie shouted, spinning around. Her uncharacteristically angry and serious tone caught me completely offguard and left me stunned.

Evie continued to shout at me, "You are always like this! You take the smallest of things as a personal insult and then go off on an irrational temper! I have done nothing but try to help you during all this time of suffering that you have been put through purely for your sake! Do you think I really have anything to gain from spending my time with you and seeing to it that you don't kill yourself or someone else from harbouring this senseless hatred and rage that you always build up inside your person?! There are a million other things that I could be doing in that time that would serve to my benefit but I forsake all of that for you because you are important to me Xyder! Can't you see? We all care about you, Alva, mother, Caitlyn, Storm, Satella, Dagan, Rydia and so many of your fellow clansmen but you don't give us the chance to show it! You always run down this lone wolf path that does not exist! The entire world isn't against you! Where has the Xyder that charmed the entire clan gone with his childish kindness, bravery and selflessness. You've convinced yourself that you had to become a heartless beast in order to survive and honestly that is who I've begun to see everytime I look at you! Sometimes I can't even tell if you're the same little brother I had once grown to love........ I have put up with your bullshit for far too long and I won't do it any longer! I want to be there Xyder! I want to help you and be a part of your life, but if you keep acting like a small, self-centred brat then I will have no choice but to walk the other way and I won't turn back!"

Evie had begun to cry in the middle of her rant and now stood sniffling and wiping the streams flowing down her face. I clenched my fist and gritted my teeth as anger and frustration overwhelmed me. 'There is it,' I thought, 'There is the very same rage she had just complained about.'

And yet, despite my feelings, I knew inside that it was true. Perhaps I had even shared in her sentiment. I turned away and began to walk off cursing myself under my breath.

"W-w-w-wait Xyder, I-I-I-I'm s-s-s-sor-r-r-ry," she called out between sobs.

I laughed before replying, "Don't be. It is the truth after all. Everr since that moment, I've been trying to hide myself in the shadows of hatred. And yet, I am ironically a misfit. I didn't know what do do so I just began to mimic those I felt were strong. Those with dark past filled of pain and suffering. I wanted to special.... I wanted to believe that I had something unique, something specific to me. Since I've made myself feelalone, life has been so hard and I can't help but sit and feel like a worthless imitation of something greater. Religion always preaches that we are all God's lovely creations but I could never see it. I'm little more than a woeful soul...... one whose plea has not been heard. I speak not of my bashful claims either. I talk of my true voice, a voice that had its wings clipped and burned, preventing its rise to the surface. But my fate can never be changed. I've lived in a dream but now I see its time I leave this false land and return to the living. I was never meant to be remembered, rather Iwas fated to be left forgotten on a shelf. Fear of this has held me back for so long but now I have decided. I will never go back to the way I was before but I will forge a brighter future for myself and I shall bring us all to the light as the leader of this clan!"

A gentle breeze blew past and my hair swayed with its tranquil tempo. I felt a great burden be lifted off of my chest as I said these words and my stress and worry melted away. For the first time in seven years I had finally been completely honest with myself.

"Thank God Xyder," Evie began as she hugged me from behind, "I can't believe that I doubted that you had grown up these past years. I know you be great as Regulus. I am happy that I could be your sister."

"Anyway, I have a truth to admit to you as well...... There is a secret I have kwpt from you for many long years now and I am sorry that I ever betrayed you like this but I had to keep a promise to him."

"What are you talking about Evie?" I asked the girl.

"A long time ago I discovered something amazing. Something I thought only I could do. I ran home to tell my mother and she gave me a strict warning: Do Not Tell Anyone About This! Especially Xyder!"

"What is it? And who is the 'he' you promised?"

Evie continued, "My mother had told me that before he left, our father left her with an important task. 'Evie will no doubt find out about her ability very soon since she is a smart girl but when she does, make sure Xyder does not learn about it for he harbours the same prowess and only when he has awokened as a mature man and come to terms with leading this clan, then and only then should he be told' is what our father said."

"What is this ability?" I inquired impatiently.

"Xyder," Evie said turning around, "I didn't hold back against you, in fact I put more into that fight than any of the last battles I took part in. The truth is that I used my entire arsenal against you. The reason I could use other elements in the first fight and the truth behind your ability is........."