Ice skate with your heart

Eighty

Lia's POV
A month later.

I woke up early to go to the ice rink. I started slow just getting on the ice. Not letting fear get the better of me.

Graduation was soon and it's all Liam and I have talked about. When the the school term after the summer starts Liam and Addie decided that it would be better for them to break up.

He was so upset. But long distance never really works.
Boston vs Berkeley 3,000 miles away from each is too much for them.

Maddison was even more upset. She cried for about a week and avoided Liam for a bit so she could recompose.

Rocco and I have a meeting with Lucy about university and change and things like that which I'm dreading so I came back to the place where I feel most calm.

The ice rink. I took my time, skating around slowly getting faster before I even dared to pick up my stick.

It felt nice to be back on the ice. I imagined all these screaming fans for the penguins and for Me.
Anderson 1 has the puck, she skates around everyone, narrowly missing 14 on other team. She shoots she scores! The crowd goes wilded. Anderson made it. The last goal of the season. What an amazing run for the penguins.

It is the best feeling knowing that most of the town has your back.
I miss this feeling. But I'm definitely trying out for the terriers for BU. Eros would be proud of me and Rocco for trying to continuing without him.

I picked up my stick and lined up the pucks and went for it. Hit after hit. 6/10 went in.
In university I'm going to work hard. Constantly. No slacking.

I will be the best me possible.

After skating for about an hour I went to the shops and bought some flowers before making my way to the graveyard.

We buried Eros right under a blue blossom tree. It is beautiful.

I got him these beautiful white and pink roses.

They were expensive but anything for my son.
"Hi. I know it's been a long time since I visit. Since the funeral but it was very hard to bring myself back. I love you so much." I cried resting the flowers on his grave and sitting in front of him.

"We're going to university soon and as much as I want to go, I don't at the same time. The time I would be going, I would have you. I don't want to leave you here. I want to hold you and feed you. I wanted to watch you grow up. I want to be your mum. But now I can't because I failed you. I will never forgive myself. I'm sorry." I get up and run.

I feel terrible. I sat in my car and cried. I would of been 7 months pregnant. My heart ached as soon as I sat down.

My phone buzzed and I looked at it.

I completely forgot about the meeting with Lucy. So I wipe my tears away and drive back home trying to look as happy as possible.

I walk and instantly I knew Rocco could see right through me.
"Hey, what's wrong?" He asks hugging me.
"Nothing. I just went out." I tell him trying to walk past him.

"Where?" He asks. I look up at him and calmly tell him.
"Can we talk about this later?" He nods and gives me a kiss.

"Fine, definitely later though."
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The talk with Lucy was very informative. We learned that because we are moving so far we are being assigned a new social for that state.

The scout Scott. I guess he wasn't lying when he said he'd make sure that we'd have childcare in place.
Then Sami will have a tutor to settle her needs. Instead of going to school.

We will spend a year in dorms before moving into an apartment/ house depending on what we like and what ever university Rocco gets into he is required to take a psychiatric and a MSE (mental state examination) because of the situation he put himself in.

But he's better now so he will be ok. As for the young carers and ride high, they will pick Sami up from one dorm and drop her of at night so she's ok. Nothing will really change for her.

Our move will be ok.