My Answer To Life: OC X Akihiko Sanada P3 Fanfic

Chapter 8

It wasn't long before Fuuka officially joined us. At first, I was very happy to get a new member, but....... Mitsuru too officially rejoined the front line. The team was stronger than before.......without me in it. Yuki still takes me into Tartarus, but only when they decided to train on lower floors, facing the enemies that they've already fought. They no longer take me to explore higher unknown floors and boss fights. I stayed behind with Fuuka more frequently. I feel that........ I'm a extra person.

     "Kiera-chan, are you okay? "Fuuka asked when I dozed off at the bottom of the stairs.

     "Yeah, just thinking. "I replied. Junpei wasn't with us today as Yuki nearly ran him dead yesterday. The lobby is much quiet than before.

     "Erm....... There's something that I have been wanting to ask if that's okay with you. "She said shyly.

     "Sure, I guess. What is it? "I questioned.

     "You know I can sense shadows and personas right?....... I sense something similar in you, but.......unstable and it seems to deteriorating your body. "I snapped and quickly grabbed both her shoulders. She flinched when I did that.

      "Did you tell anyone about that yet? "I panicked. She quickly shook her head, I relaxed a bit at her answer.

      "Sorry. "I frankly let go of her.

     "....... Kiera-chan, are you aware of that? "She seems concerned.

     "....... Just don't tell anyone about it, please. "

     "But, Kiera-chan....... "

     "Please, Fuuka sempai. I'm fine, really. I'm already a burden, I don't want to burden them any further. "

      "But, Kiera-chan....... You're not a burden. "

      "You don't have to tell me that, no one has to. I'm well aware myself....... There's probably no stopping it, but......just let me live in this lie a little longer. Please? "She was quiet for a while.

      "How are you so sure that you can't stop it? "She asked.

      "........ I've already tried........ For ten whole years. Don't worry, I'm still here aren't I? It failed to kill me for ten years,what makes it different now?" I asked with a smile. She seems to relaxed a bit. Perhaps, she had accepted the fact that this is normal for me. After all, ten years is a long time. The fact that I've lived that long still surprise me.

***

After a few weeks of bullying, I got used to it. All they did was sending me notes and placing white lilies on my desk. I learned how to look at this with a different angle. There's a white lily on my desk everyday, I managed to collect a small bouquet after two weeks, it happens to look nice in my room. There're still people dumping water on me, but I dodged them without fail now since I know what to expect everyday. The reflexes gained from fighting shadows works like a charm. Before I knew it, they're cruel words no longer bother me. Everything returned to normal at a certain point.

I went onto the roof once school's over, to my own surprise, Jin called me. I wondered what is it.

      "Hello? "I picked up the phone.

      "We need to talk, now. "He demanded.

      "What's wrong? "I asked.

      "Meet me at the Manga Cafe in the Strip Mall now. "He ordered then he hung up before I could ask another question. I was confused, yet I followed his words.

     "So, what do you want to talk about? "I asked him once I saw him. He dragged me to the corner where no ones pays attention, then he checked his surroundings before he handed me a piece of paper filled with my personal information.

     "....... Did you summarized my information? "I asked as I read through the paper. It has practically everything correct on my official documents.

     "Don't you get it? You know that Strega started the revenge website to earn a living. "He whispered.

     "Yeah, I know. I still don't like the idea though. "I sighed.

     "Really? Then, you better be grateful that I'm the admin for the website! You're on the list and ranked top 1 last night once the dark hour ends. "I flinched at the information.

      "What? "I was too shocked to say anything else.

      "I managed to delete it before Takaya and Chidori found out. But, if you appeared on the list for a second time, people will starts to suspect that you're related to the revenge website. Now, answer me, what did you do, Kiera? "He demanded for answers. I was quiet, hesitant to give him an answer, but I know that I couldn't hide anything from him.

      "........ I was targeted for bully in school. "I said softly. He paused for a while.

      "Someone saw me hanging out with guys like a lot. They saw me with Shinji, you, Akihiko and Junpei. "I continued with my head low.

      "And you didn't ask anyone for help? "He questioned, his tone visibly softened.

      "If I did, I'll risk having them find out who I really am. "I squeezed onto skirt, the tears that I've held in for weeks finally escaped from my eyes. Suddenly, I feel arms wrapped around me. Jin held me as I continued to sob softly in his arms. I thought he had changed, but I guess he never did.

***

      "I'll do something about the website, so don't worry about it okay? "Jin walked me back to the dorm as it was already late. I nod silently.

     "I'll contact you through phone calls, but it's best that we don't see each other just yet. At least until the rumors disappear. "He said as he gently pat my head.

     "Okay. "I answered.

     "And, here. You'll need it. "He handed me a capsule filled with pills. I thanked him before he left me in front of the door.

     "Where have you been? "Aki greeted me with a smile.

     "Hanging out with friends. "I answered as I hid the pills from everyone's sight.

     "Wanna join us for dinner? "He asked as he showed me a cup ramen.

     "It's okay, I'm not hungry. I wanted to get a shower first. "I said as I returned to my room.

     "Okay. "Aki said before be continued eating. This makes me wonder, if Mitsuru was the one who said those words, will he suspect that something's wrong?

After I took a shower, I wrote everything down and sighed when I'm done. My mind is in a mess these days, I guess I still can pass it off as stress, but I wonder how long that kind of lie will last? I looked out the window and stared at the moon, it's almost a full moon. Those boss shadows will appear soon. Will I be needed then?

I laid on the bed, toying with my evoker. It's a beautiful weapon, yet something I can't use. My twin blades had upgraded to something much better than the previous ones, but what's the point? My blades don't hit as hard as a persona. Even shadows can tell that I'm the weakest one in the team. Perhaps, weaker than Fuuka. I can't top off a persona user, I never will be able to do it. I can't protect anyone, I'm too weak to do so.