enemies ⁀➷ y.jn ✓

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Y/N POV

Hyunjin kept touching my face, patting it to see if I had a high temperature. It was a bit weird, yea, but what else can I do? Hyunjin's never like this.

But I don't really mind.

Jeongin doesn't care either.

I kept quickly sneaking glances at Jeongin, his expressions were dark and gloomy. He didn't even look at me once.

It hurts, it feels like we broke up. We weren't even dating. Those types of relationships hit the most. It hurts so bad, it feels like I can't breathe.

But why? Why did he suddenly push me away?

Why did he suddenly act cold.. I don't know what I did wrong. I'm certain I'm to blame, he didn't do anything. I probably did something and I'm just too stupid to realize what I did.

Whatever, it's clear he wants to move on from me, IF he hasn't already.. so I shouldn't care anymore. I'll teach myself not to care, I'll be okay.

I hope I'll be okay, at least.

Although.. my mind feels cloudy. It feels like I'm suffocating, no breath of air whenever I see Jeongin. It hurts so much. I feel like I'm going crazy, losing my mind because of him. I'm never this type of girl, I don't know what's up with me.

Can't get him out of my head.

I'm thankful for Hyunjin, though. He's been here with me through it all. But I haven't told him what's been going on with me and Jeongin, so I'm not sure what to do.. I don't know how to feel about Hyunjin either. He's my bestfriend, I don't think I can ever see him more than that, but he's been really affectionate. It's not like him. I'm not used to it, but I'm slowly getting used to him being this close with me.

If Jeongin wants to move on, I'll leave him alone so he can move on. If he doesn't want me, then he doesn't want me.. it hurts, but I just want him happy. Whatever he wants, I'll have to accept it. Even if it's not what I want.

I snapped back to reality, faking a smile to the boys.

"I'm fine. Don't worry about me." I said, getting up.

I walked to the living room, unfolding the fuzzy blanket and sitting down on the couch, covering myself with the blanket. I warmed up, turning on the TV.

Jeongin was already on the couch, but I made sure to keep some distance. Hyunjin joined me on the couch next to me, sitting close. I gave him some portion of the blanket as well, as he looks at me and smiles.

I look at him and smile back, and under the blanket, his hand touches my hand accidentally. He widened his eyes and quickly removed his hand, giggling nervously.

"Oops.." He said, blushing.

"It's okay." I replied, giggling.

Felix sat on the other side of me, and I gave him some blanket as well. Eventually all the boys were in the living room with me, watching random shows on Netflix.

Every now and then, I couldn't help but glance at Jeongin. His expressions were still dark and gloomy; but at the same time, they were also blank. As if he had no emotions. But I can see some kind of sadness in his eyes, and it made my heart ache.

'Stop, he doesn't care anymore.' I thought to myself.

Suddenly Hyunjin rested his head on my head affectionately. I peaked up at him and he was blushing a little, his cheeks a soft pink. I gulped silently, not knowing how to feel.

He's never been this close before.

Oh boy, I really hope he doesn't like me. I don't want to cause more drama again like last time.

But why would there be drama? Jeongin doesn't care about me anymore.

I'm not sure. Let's just hope Hyunjin sees me as his bestfriend, because that's all we are. Bestfriends.

It would be weird seeing him more than that.

Honestly, though, I don't mind the affection. It makes me feel a bit better. But it just makes me think of Jeongin.

It sounds mean, I know. It sounds bad. But I can't help think of Jeongin.

"You guys are weird.." Felix whispered in my ear.

I turned my head facing him, raising an eyebrow.

"What do you mean?" I ask him quietly.

"You and Hyunjin. That's weird. I've never seen you two that close."

"I know, it's weird."

"I'm surprised Jeongin isn't sitting with you."

"Me and Jeongin really aren't a thing anymore." I said bitterly.

"What?" His eyes widened.

"So does that mean I have a chance?" He smiled goofily.

I death stare at him.

"Okay nevermind.. ha..ha..ha.." He scratched the back of his head.

"Do the other hyungs know?" He continued.

"No. I haven't told anyone. You're the first."

"So I'm special."

"Yes, you're special." I deadpan sarcastically.

"So rude." He pouts.

I giggle silently, ruffling his head.

"Stop touching Felix." Hyunjin moved my hand away.

That was weird.

Please, Jesus... if Hyunjin likes me.. I'm going to move to Mars..

"He definitely likes you." Felix said accidentally too loud.

I smacked his head, for being too loud. He yelped, scared.

"I hope not." I reply, whispering.

"What if I do?"