𝑻𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝑾𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝑳𝒂𝒔𝒕 𝑭𝒐𝒓𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓 | ✔

Chapter 26

*Jay's POV*

I heard murmuring voices outside the door and I was pretty sure it were Erin and Will's voices.
"Jay? Can I come in?" Erin opened the door slowly and looked at me.
I nodded, but inside I was ashamed of her, but I couldn't say it.
"Do you mind if I sit down?" She waited until I nodded again.
"I'm sorry, Erin." My feelings and memories overwhelmed me and I couldn't help but cry.
When I looked at Erin I could see the desperation she was feeling.
"Do mind to just hug me?" I needed her to touch me and at the same time I wanted her to be as far away from me as possible because I was ashamed of what happened.
She immediately put her arms around me and I placed my head at her shoulder.
"You're gonna be fine, Jay. And no matter what you need, I'll be there." I could hear from her voice that she was crying.
"Erin?" I looked at her and she grabbed my hand.
"Can I tell you what happened? The second it is too much for you, or you can't stand it, please tell me and I'll stop immediately." I knew from experience that it was best to talk about traumatic events and not dealing with them yourself. I didn't want to mentally burden Erin with my problems even more than I already did, but she was the only one I could talk to about it without completely dying of shame.

*Erin's POV*

Jay told me about everything he experienced. I listened to everything without interrupting him because I knew how bad he needed to talk about what happened.
I tried to suppress my emotions, but I couldn't help but cry.
"I am so sorry, Jay." I didn't even try to touch him because I knew I wasn't able to get touched at all right now.
"Could you leave me alone for a second?" As I closed the door behind me I heard him throwing up.
I swayed a little and sank to the floor against the wall.
"You're alright?" A nurse came running up to me.
"Yes. Just a little emotional chaos, all good." Apparently that was enough for her to leave me alone again.
I tried to get my breathing back under control and since I wanted to give Jay some time I went to the cafeteria to get a coffee.
Our unit was sitting on a table and I tried to avoid making the notice me but I failed because Hailey walked up to me.
"How is he?" Obviously she couldn't tell that I was an emotional wreck, because she just looked worried.
"I would say according to the circumstances. But you don't have to wait here, because you can't see him for now and I'll stay with him." I just didn't want them to see Jay in his current state.
"You know him best. If you say so I'm gonna go over to the rest and tell them." Hailey gave me a quick hug and then left. Moments after speaking to them, they cleared the table.
I quickly grabbed my coffee because I didn't want to leave Jay alone for too long but as I walked up the hallway again I saw alot of nurses and doctors rushing into his room.
I accidentally dropped my coffee but I didn't care and ran into his room.
"You can't be in here." A nurse tried to stop me.
"I'm his girlfriend." I just ducked under her arm.
"Jay. Jay!" My boyfriend had beads of sweat on his face and his heartbeat was supernaturally fast.
But he must have recognized my voice because suddenly he opened his eyes, but it took a few moments before he fixed me.
"Make them leave." His lips only formed the words, but I understood him.
"Guys. Please leave him alone. His brother is Will Halstead and if we need anything I'm gonna tell you.
The fact that Will was his brother didn't change his mental or physical state, but it seemed convincing to the doctors.
It was getting late to evening and Jay kept trying to sleep, but he was awakened by nightmares.
So I spent my whole night waking him up when he started to shake again.