"I don't understand what your problem is," I muttered as soon as we crossed the threshold into our shared room. "What she's saying makes sense, it's not like it's any added trouble for the two of us."
we don't have to do anything special
if anything it was considerate of her to let us know what her plan was
i'd rather not be blindsided by something like that
"She's more than capable of proving herself worthy without dragging the two of us into it."
you're right but-
"The timing makes sense, she should take advantage of the moment while she still can," my frown deepened at his words.
i don't want to prevent something positive from happening
"What will you do when you've been pulled into this mess and can't get out?" Levi scoffed, slamming the door shut.
you-
"I'm confident in Historia's abilities, isn't that enough? Besides- the two of us are already in enough mess, it's not like her plan will make it any better or worse."
if anything- letting her do this is the safer option for all of us
if she does decide to use the forces she undoubtedly has- it could spell out even worse for the two of us
people know that i'm close with her- they might attempt to investigate the two of us because of that
on the off chance that she fails
which i don't think she would
"Exactly, she's skilled- she can do this with or without us. I don't want to be associated with anything that she's planning."
it isn't like we haven't joked about treason before-
her taking advantage of our situation isn't even treason
it's the safer option
"She's my sister."
"Exactly, she's your sister who never did anything for you and who's now trying to use your struggle as a way to succeed."
levi-
"You're twisting the situation."
"Y/N-" he glared at me. "When was the last time anyone in that fucking family did something for you?"
they-
"Historia and Annie both support our relationship."
"Neither of us need the support of your shitty relatives to love each other."
no but it isn't in their best interests to support us
or at least i thought it wasn't
they've helped by giving me information about the first princess in the past too
"Levi I don't need you to help me judge what relationships are healthy, I understand that my relationship with Historia and Annie will never be perfect but it's not your responsibility to tell me that."
i'm an adult
"Before the two of us knew each other, did any of them ever try to help you? Did they even acknowledge your existence?"
no
"I'm not upset with them for that so you shouldn't be either."
the royal family is highly competitive- i was going to be sold off anyway
i understand not wanting to form attachments like that
i won't lie and pretend like it didn't hurt but i never had a relationship with them- there was no reason for me to miss it
"I can't tell you how to feel about something so you can't either," Levi snapped at me.
you're being unfair
"Fine, there's no use attempting to reason with you then," I scoffed at him. "The two of us can't understand each other, that's the end of this conversation."
i don't want to talk to you right now it's making me angry
"Fine," Levi turned on his heel, heading towards the door. "I'll be in my office when you're ready to talk."
"Why would I want to know that?"
"Goodbye Y/N," the door clicked shut loudly behind him.
goodbye
Alone in our room the silence seemed to stretch on endlessly, not even the ticking grandfather clock could break through the oppressive quiet.
maybe i shouldn't have reacted in that way but-
it's not fair
i get to have a say in things like this too- and he completely brushed off any chance of that
I glanced around the room, confronted by how cold it felt even with the bright pinks and reds of sunset illuminating the space.
it's going to be dark soon
levi was talking about how tired he was during the carriage ride-
he'll come back to go to bed right?
"Don't be ridiculous," I muttered to myself.
of course he will
we have to keep up our 'act'
even if he's upset with me right now he's not stupid enough to do something that will make it harder for us in the future
if that's the case then i should stop sitting here worrying
he's a grown man- he's not that stupid
you're right
of course, i am but-
but?
he's not stupid but he is emotionally constipated
and we've never fought before
im going crazy
I found myself standing on the balcony, staring blankly out at the garden as the last rays of sunlight were chased over the horizon and out of sight.
he's really stubborn
he really won't come back unless i go to him first
but i don't want to
i don't understand what his problem is
and i don't think i should be forced to understand him if he doesn't want to take the time to listen to me
An hour later, I laid awake in bed, staring at the ceiling, moonbeams lighting up the room.
he isn't back
that's his choice
he's an idiot
im worried
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sitting here and remembering when i said tht this wld probably end around 125 chapters .........
- ami
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tidal (Levi x Reader)
Fanfiction"As soon as I was born I was shipped off to a back corner of the royal palace and forgotten." Y/N L/N is the forgotten 13th princess of the Kingdom of Sina. As soon as she turns 18 she will be cast aside and used in a political marriage. Levi Ackerm...
