Dreaming Of You - Jenna Ortega imagines

I'll always love you (requested)

(i tried my best with this one, so sorry if it isnt accurate)

You've been struggling with who you are since you were a kid. You never really thought of yourself as a girl, always hanging with the guys and being more masculine. You always found that dresses and skirts have made you uncomfortable, makeup never was your favorite either. 

Your family normalized all the uncomfortable things as just being a normal woman, so that's what you believed, that it was normal to feel this way. You kept it to yourself, not even telling your best friend since childhood (now girlfriend), Jenna.

You had made maybe one or two comments about it, but it was never enough to cause anyone to look into it. 

But recently, there was these videos on tiktok that you've seen, talking about how they were like growing up pre-transition. It was new, you didn't know that there were millions of people who feel the same as you. 

This was something that you looked into, but alone, you didn't want to burden or confuse anyone, what if you were wrong? But, you aren't really good at keeping secrets from your girlfriend, she had seen you watching all these videos multiple times. She refrained from asking you about it, not wanting to overstep any boundaries, she wanted you to tell her when you were ready.

After a few months of looking into it, you decided to go and talk to her about it, it was getting hard for you to keep this to yourself. 

"Hey, Jenna,  can we talk?" You asked, wringing your hands, your heart was racing, you were a little nervous. She looked up from her phone, curious. 

"Sure, what's up?" She asked as you went to go take a seat on the couch beside her. 

You started to stammer, unsure on how to start this conversation. "I don't think I'm a girl." You confessed, your hands still wringing together. She nodded, grabbing one of your hands to stop you, and to comfort you. She knew that whenever you would wring your hands, you were insanely nervous. She looked at you, wanting you to continue. "You know how I've never liked dresses and all that shit, and I thought it was all normal. But then I saw this thing on tiktok about it, and I've kinda just tried to figure out this stuff." You were a little awkward, you've never had this sort of conversation before.

"What do you identify as?" She asked, her voice soft. You felt your anxiety calm down a little with her reaction. You gave her a smile.

"A guy," There was a sort of glint that Jenna saw in your eyes, it made you so happy to talk about this, which made her happy. "Uh, could you start by calling me y/n (shh pretend its different)?"

"Yes, of course, whatever makes you happy." She reassured, a warm smile on her face. 

Although this made you happy, there was a still a hump that you had to go over. Would she still love you?

She noticed that you were a little hesitant still. "Is that everything?" 

"I- would you still want to date me? I'd totally understand if yo-" She cut you off with a kiss before you could start rambling. She pulled away, her hands cupping your cheeks.

"Of course I'd still date you. I'll be here for you this whole journey, okay? I love you and support you." A sense of relief washed over your face as you kissed her.

"I love you so much." You whispered, a tear sliding down your cheek.

"I'll always love you, y/n."

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(requests wont go with the lyrics!)