Dreaming Of You - Jenna Ortega imagines

please let me go - jo

In which you realize

Listen to: I Love You So - The Walters

There she was, the most beautiful woman you have ever lain your eyes on. You admired her within every way. Somehow, every time that you saw her, she always put a smile on your face. You loved to listen to her voice, butterflies erupting in your chest every time. 

You never saw her all the time, only every now and then. You never complained, just as long as you were able to see her, it made you happy.

You could watch her all day, you have watched her all day. You've fallen asleep listening to her talk, it was comforting, but you also loved to stay awake just to be hypnotized by her.

You talked to everyone about her, you didn't care who, everyone just needed to know about her. 

She brings you into a different reality, one where you're in a pure bliss forever, you always wish to never leave.

But you always do.

There has to be a time where you need to shut off your phone, your laptop, your TV. Take a break from the screen. There's a point where you need to realize that you'll never have her like you want to.

She doesn't even know you exist.

You're all over this one person who'll never give you the time of day. Your obsession grows day by day, taking in whatever media with her. 

You need to grow out of this phase, always imagining what it would be like to be hers, how you would treat her, because it won't be happening. You and I know that well.

This love that you like to think she has for you is all in your head. You twist words she's said, using it to make you feel better about yourself.

But let's face it.

Jenna Ortega is just some celebrity, and you're some fan.

That's all you are and all you'll ever be.

It's a harsh reality but it's one that you have to succumb to.

happy valentines you fuckers