to all the glowing eyes ✎ joshler

october 19

will;

i hate everything and everyone.

life doesn't have meaning anymore.

i want to get out of here. i want to escape so bad. i need to throw this shit life away.

would it be so bad if i just...escaped?

i can work petsitting my neighbors' dogs and try to get enough money for a bus ticket.

everything's already planned. i just have to actually leave.

leave it all behind seems like such an impossible thing.

i would have to throw away my phone so i can't get reached by anyone.

as if by miracle, there's an lgtb center that houses young people who need a fresh start. i can be one of those.

i would only take certain things with me. anything too strongly related with my past life would stay behind.

the more i write and think about it, the more i believe i can actually pull it off.

dad made a 'kms' joke during dinner. i felt so horrible as my parents laughed at it.

i didn't really eat much after that. i just ate a few pieces of broccoli and a little bit of rice. i'm surprised mom didn't notice.

they're so self centered and close minded... i hate living in this home.

my freedom is closer than i could ever imagine now.

all i have to do it wait, will. just a little waiting and i'll be okay.

t.r.j

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josh looks up cities nearby that have lgtb centers. he finds one in particular that sounds a lot like the one tyler has described so far.

it seems like a nice city to live in.

he wishes he had the balls to join tyler in his runaway.

he is too scared to even think about it.

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i feel like i'm making this story sound like @/gaydun's stories oops

i saw jacksepticeye's let's play of 'a normal lost phone' and honestly,,, i love it. i finished watching the video and realized how similar the plots are

hm...

-alaska