Can I stay? (Gerard Way x Reader)

Fake? (35)

I back away from them and move closer to Gee but then he starts crazy laughing too. I feel like I am going insane.. how ironic. I back away from them both but a man grabs me from behind. I am not as scared as I usually am but it feels so disturbing having Gerard just laugh at me whilst I am being dragged away. The ground scrapes against my shoes and my head really hurts. 

Before I know it I am back in the dark again. alone. Or at least I think I am alone. Then a figure comes from the dark carrying a knife. My body fills with panic and my heart rate increases. I don't want to die like this. Please no. I scream with as much force as I can muster "Please don't".

then it went blank

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I woke up to a very bright light being shone directly in my eyes. I can hear people sobbing and I am so confused I let out a some tears as well. I flinch as someone tries to touch my arm and soon after the light is switched off. After my vision has adjusted I feel even more baffled than ever. I'm backstage, at an arena. The same arena where I... fainted. 

It all sort of clicks in my head but it still doesn't make complete sense. I mumble under my breath "so it was a dream?" and some of the people around me look at each other. A friendly looking guy who is kneeling in front of me holding none other than the bloody light smiles. He's wearing a first aid uniform thing and he has a badge on his jacket. 

"It's wasn't a dream. You fainted and probably had some kind of vision or flashback, but you're going to be okay. Your friends did the right thing" he says in a gentle voice. When he said friends he gestured towards the dressing room.  I still feel quite shaky and shocked from my 'vision' but now that I know I am safe and not hurt I take a deep breath.

Another woman strolls over looking just as relaxed as he is. She checks my pulse and says that it's fine. They both have a whispered conversation and then end it with satisfied nods. I just sit here bewildered. They turn to me and say that I can go and see the guys which I can't not smile at. 

I stand up and walk towards the room and give it a small knock before I enter. I am just about to push it open when someone opens it from the other side. I step back from surprise but before I can see who it is I am in the center of a massive hug. One of those group hugs that make you feel all warm and fuzzy. Then when I pull away and sit on the sofa Mikey gives my hand a squeeze, Ray smiles at me, Frank has a stupid grin on his face and Gerard looks very relieved. I will fix it and I will not hide from my problems again.. not now that I have seen how hurt I have made them