FOREVER AND ALWAYS ━━━━ jasper hale.

14- Always Here

" I think that protecting your family and giving to them is so important. It is the most important achievement."

-Natalia Vodianova

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TRIGGER ALERT: MENTIONS OF RAPE

There was one phrase that I kept repeating in my head as we drove to Port Angeles:

I miss Alice, I miss Jasper, I miss Alice, I miss Jasper.

I do though! Miss them both. It seems like I haven't seen them in decades, although it has only been days. I am kind of freaked out about what Bella and Angela said yesterday about... you know. I just don't really know how I feel about Jasper yet. I know that I like him more then a friend, but I am too afraid to tell him and risk not only rejection, but ruining my friendship with all of the Cullen's in the process. Pus, I have never been the type to actually tell people how I feel. Once I had a crush on this guy for three years straight because I was too afraid to confess to him. It is kind of sad really.

And now, here I am, trying on dresses with the three people I thought I would never have fun with.

No offense, Angela.

"What about this one?" I asked, holding out a shorter, dark blue dress. I held it out in front of me and mockingly struck a pose. Bella shook her head.

"No. You need red. It goes good with your skin-tone and your hair."

"Whatever you say."

"I like the red too! It really shows your inner thirst for blood!" Jessica yelled from the dressing room, and I rolled my eyes. We didn't like each other, but I feel like we are passing slowly into frenemy territory.

"Shut up, shortie!" I yelled, looking around and grabbing the first bundle of red fabric I could find. It was long, falling down to my feet, and had a silver belt that twisted up into the off-the-shoulder sleeves.

"That's the one." Bella said immediately after I exited the changing room. I scrunched my nose, "really? You don't think it's too..." I searched for the right word, "flamboyant?"

"No, it looks great, Court." Angela grinned, a shopping bag in her hand. She was the first to pick out a dress because she looks stunning in everything.

"This is the one, it makes my boobs look good." Jessica announced, stepping out in a pretty, strapless pink dress. I snickered, "or lack thereof."

"Shut up." She placed her hands on her hips, and we both stared at each other, in our pretty dresses.

"I didn't think you would look anything short of hideous."

"The same could be said for you."

Bella and Angela shared knowing smiles, they knew that was the closest we would get to complimenting each other.

"I'll get this one, but I'm gonna be broke after." I warned, stepping back into the changing room to put my comfy clothes back on.

"Now can we get food? I'm starving!"

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Bella and her goddamn books.

I just wanted food.

And Bella wanted books.

Now, I didn't want her out alone in the dark, in the city. So I agreed to accompany her to the nearest book store, which also happened to be a twenty minute walk away. Bella and her damn books. I want food.