FOREVER AND ALWAYS ━━━━ jasper hale.

28- Hardships

"You can't follow your heart when it is more confused then your head."

-Unknown

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"So if you don't call me, I will cut off all of the hair you have and feed it to rabid raccoons!"

I angrily threw my phone on my bed, groaning in frustration. Bella popped her head in my room. "He didn't answer again?" She asked, her lips pulled into a tight, angry line.

"No!" I angrily kicked the wall, forgetting about my obnoxious strength, and made a small dent in the plaster. Well, better then the time I punched the wall.

Jacob has been blowing us off, completely. Billy is saying that he has mono, but like, seriously? You get that from kissing, don't you? And unless Jacob has been secretly making out with Bella behind my back, he doesn't seem like someone who has even kissed someone. At first I was concerned, but now I am feeling some of my old anger coming back. I was pissed and worried.

"Bells, we have to go see if he's okay." I urged, silently grabbing my set of keys off the night stand. "And if he is okay, than I kill him."

"Agreed."

We jogged down the stairs, practically flying out into the rain. My short hair plastered to my neck within seconds. I ignored it and hopped into the passenger seat on instinct, Bella stepped on the gas, and we peeled out of the driveway, on route to La Push.

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"What the hell are you doing, you ass?"

Jacob looked up, and I gasped. He definitely got taller again, and he was walking through the pouring rain with no short, and shorts. He cut all of his magnificent hair off, and got some sort of... tattoo on his arm.

"What happened to being too sick to leave the house?" I demanded, sure that I looked crazy as my hair was falling into my eyes in crazy, soaking wet waves.

"Go away."

I actually took a step back at that, confusion blossoming in my chest at those two words. Go away? Who does he think his is?

"Courtney, no."

Maybe Bella could tell I was about to backhand this kid into South America, because she placed her hand on my arm. "You can't just beat up everything that annoys you" She scolded, and I was about to completely lose it, but didn't get the chance.

"Did Sam get to you? Is this what is happening?

"Sam is trying to help me!"

"Who the bloody hell is Sam?"

"If you want someone to blame, how about those filthy bloodsuckers you love, the Cullen's?"

That was it for me.

Not only did he mention the Cullen's. He mentioned the word I have learned to hate. Love. I don't love anymore. I don't even experience infatuation anymore. Just dull emptiness.

"Don't say that!" I screamed, my voice rising over the rain. "You have no right to talk about them! No right!" I clenched my fists, closing my eyes and trying to calm my breathing. I don't know if it was thunder or my heartbeat, but I have to do something to relieve the pressure building in my chest.

"Jacob!"

There it is.

I whirled around on my heels and began marching over to the forest, where a group of shirtless dudes were gathering. These little assholes are gonna get a severe-

Before I could reach the group, Jacob was suddenly standing in front of me, placing his hands on my shoulders and harshly shoving me backwards. I stumbled, falling onto my back in the cool mud.

That's it.

I growled, jumping up and lashing out and pouncing at the younger male, shoving him back harder and barely even hearing Bella's pleads for me to stop. I heard a lot more yelling, and then I was yanked away from Jacob by a pair of strong arms wrapping around my wrists. I thrashed around.

"Let me go!" I screamed, but my position was too awkward, an this bitch was too strong for me to escape my prison.

"Paul, do not let her go." The boy I recognized as Embry's eyes widened in fear. He cut his hair. Why is everyone cutting their hair!

"Paul I swear to God-" I began, but realized I would probably arrested if I kept this up. And I was surrounded by freakishly muscular teenagers with matching tattoo's. "What the hell is this!" I demanded, and Jacob took a step back, all of a sudden not all too keen on being near me. Serves him right.

I feel better now. Bella was wrong, I can totally beat up everything that annoys me.

"None of your business, sweetheart." The deep voice behind me cooed, and I twisted around slightly so I could pinch the exposed skin on my stomach, he yelped and dropped me.

"Jeez Paul, I think we found your match." One of the bigger guys chuckled, and I narrowed my eyes. Bella looked a mix between scared and 100% done with my bullshit.

"Go!" Jacob pointed towards our truck. "Courtney, I'm sorry. Just go."

"You can't just do that, Jake!" I snapped, feeling tears spring to my eyes against my own will. I can't go through this again. I can't. I don't know how I would. How Bella would. "You can't just pop into someones life, make them care, and then ditch! You just can't! It's not only a jackass move, it's just not right!"

"I said go!"

My mouth fell open at the harsh tone that came out of his mouth. I inhaled sharply through my nose, taking a moment to rake my eyes over the group. All of the boys were making an effort to not look at me, expect for one. The Paul dude raised his eyebrow at me and the corners of his kips quirked up. I silently flipped him off, before turning back to Jacob.

"Fine." My voice came out curt and stiff. "Fine. I think it would have been easier for all of us if we never met." I turned and walked off, holding my middle finger in the air until I got to Bella, grabbing her hand and dragging her to the truck.

I though Jacob was my saving grace. He was more of a poison that takes a while to kick.

Fuck you, Jacob Black. 

A/N: Next chapter will be really dramatic, and probably super sassy... You will soon get a better glimpse into Courtney's relationship with the Wolf Pack... it will probably be quite amusing. 

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