A Vampire's Love - Edward Cullen (Twilight saga)

Chapter 10 - Warning

Aiyanna

The next week, nothing really interesting happened.

On Monday, when I saw Edward, he seemed to be better compared to Friday when he kinda got cold towards me. Until this day I still didn't know what happened because I didn't want to talk about it, and see him be upset again. It probably had nothing to do with me.

Although I had my own car, Edward insisted on picking me up every morning. Saying that I didn't like car rides with him would be a tremendous lie. What I loved the most were the conversations we would have, once he'd park his car in front of my house. I quickly realized that it became a routine. But the thing I was starting to realize as well, was that we were always together. Glued to each other. How did we end up in this situation ?

My body was seeking for his presence so bad, that even when we had to part ways after school, it was hard for me to do so. Different feelings were rummaging inside me at the thought of it. I loved his presence but at the same time, I hated how much I loved it.

It made me wonder if Edward struggled with this feeling too. Did his heart skip a beat when he saw me in the morning ? Did he hate time for going by so fast, when I had to go back home ? Did he enjoy my presence as much as I enjoyed his ?

Although Jessica had told me that she hadn't seen Edward be that close to anyone else and smile that much even with his family, I couldn't let her assumptions get the best of me. I felt as if what I was starting to feel was wrong, especially for someone who claimed that she didn't want to catch feelings nor date anyone. Every time I was with him, I tried to control my thoughts and tried to see him as a friend but that smile that seemed to be crafted for my eyes only, and his gaze... How could I keep my calm ? How could I only see him as a friend ?

I did consider keeping my distance with him, in one of the long nights where I let my thoughts take control over my sleep. However, I doubted I'd ever get the strength to do so. He would notice if I tried to stay away from him, and then ask for an explanation I wouldn't be able to give.

The other Cullens were becoming more and more comfortable around me. Or was it just me getting used to their powerful aura ? Like Angela, I was getting used to their beauty and their presence. It didn't amaze me as much as it did in the beginning.

The closer I got to them, and the more I noticed how in various ways, they looked like each other. After being hugged by Alice on my birthday, I quickly deducted that if two of them had hard bodies, the three others must be hard as well. If they hadn't seemed physically well, I would've been worried about them. And their eyes, were all the same color. They were either black or golden yellow most of the times. But to that, they answered that they often wore contact lenses.

As I believed that I was exhausting my brain for nothing, I stopped pointing out their differences and ressemblances and let them be. It was rude to do so, even in my head. They were just like the rest of us. Well, a lot more handsome version of us but still.

That weekend, I went shopping with Alice and Rosalie, as planned. Contrarily to what I had expected, Rosalie didn't really like shopping. She was walking with us, as if she had been dragged. I felt sorry for her because Alice was overexcited right now. I wondered what it felt like to live with her and handle her energy even at home.

As we walked through another aisle, I started getting tired. I needed to sit down. I liked shopping but not for a long time. Besides, I didn't like trying on everything I'd be interesting in. It was way too exhausting.

"I'll be sitting here for a while." I sighed as I sat on one of the couches meant for people who wanted to try shoes on.

"Why do you look like you've been running a marathon ?" Rosalie asked me as she stared at my face with a mocking smile.