Can't Express Myself (Roddy Ricch)

Confused

Exotic

I laid in my bed confused as fuck why was Roddy kissing and feeling on me. the bad part was I wanted him to but we were just friends. I couldn't take Roddy seriously he was a player. A knock on my door snapped me put of my thoughts. I walked to the door and opened not even looking through the peephole. My ex Trey was standing there with roses. " Don't even try it nigga" I said trying to close the door. Trey put his foot in the door
"keep on imma break ya fucking foot" I said still trying to close the door

"Exotic hear me out"

"Speak then nigga " I sucked my teeth

"Can I come in?"

"Hell no Trey" I said getting impatient

"Alright sex is a part of a relationship and I have needs I want you to satisfy "

"Boy what fucking relationship we broke the fuck up get the fuck away from my door and don't come the fuck back !!!!!" I slammed the door in face and he started knocking again. I ignored it and turned own some loud music. My phone started ringing on the coffee table it was Roddy.

"What's up with these niggas stressing me today?"

I let it go to voicemail and then Trey started calling I declined and blocked his number. I went to my kitchen and poured me some wine. After 4 glasses I was tipsy. I turned the music off and got in the shower. Then went back to the living to get my phone Roddy had left 4 voicemails and I had 12 missed calls from him . I started listening to them

"Mamas why you leave like that earlier don't be mad at me mamas call me back so we can talk""

"Mamas call me back for real I I ain't playing with yo ass!!"

"Mamas you don't love me like you say you do or you wouldn't be treating me like this"

"Mamas if you don't call me back I'm going to get in my car and come over there I swear to God!"

"Why this nigga so damn crazy?" I chuckled and called him back

"Mamas you still mad at me ?"
I sighed "No I know you a player Roddy"
"Mamas don't say that!!"
"I called you back now I'm finna go to sleep okay?"
"No mamas come sleep over here with me."
"Roddy I'm tipsy and I ain't driving "
"Mamas I'll send an Uber pack some stuff"
"No Roddy I'm tired I will see you tomorrow"
"Alright mamas I love you"
"I love you too Roddy"

I laid in my bed naked thinking about Trey and the fact that I just couldn't bring myself to have sex with him. I knew I was going to lose my virginity at some point just not to him. We had been together for 3 months. I never even gave him head I just couldn't he wasn't special to me. Maybe I should just let Roddy take my virginity I had known him for 4 years and he always been there for me and I loved him.

If I did let him take it I didn't want it to change our relationship because I already knew what type of nigga he was .
He was already a player before he was famous now it was worse. We could however be friends with benefits. Nah fuck that. I corrected myself that shit is lame

I was snapped out of my thoughts by my phone ringing "hello"
"Come open the door mamas"
I jumped up and put on some shorts and a tank top I walked over to my door "Rodrick what are you doing here?"

Roddy
I walked into her crib"I came to be with you mamas I was lonely" I took of my shirt and took of my jeans and shoes then I headed to her bedroom. I laid in her bed waiting for her to come.

"I told yo ass I was tired and you take it upon yourself to come over here"

"Mamas come here and cuddle with me " Exotic rolled her eyes and laid down
"Don't bother me Im sleepy
Roddy"
I pulled her so she was laying on my chest.
"Mamas Imma tell yo ass to stop being sassy now give me a goodnight kiss"
Exotic kissed my cheek I grabbed her face and kissed her on the lips "Roddy what the fuck?"

"Mamas stop" she scrunched up her face I kissed her again she started pushing me but I kept kissing her eventually she relaxed and starting kissing me back. I rolled over on top of her as we keep kissing. I bit her bottom lip softly she gasps and I stuck my tongue in her mouth. I was grinding my dick on her and she pushed me off sitting up
"What are you doing Roddy?"

"What you mean mamas ?" I said rubbing her shoulder

"I'm confused"

"I want you to be mine mamas"

Exotic tried to get off the bed and I grabbed her Mamas you ain't going nowhere" I pulled her down a climbed on top of her again

"Roddy you not boyfriend material I seen you play all these girls I'm not about to be one of them. "

"So you don't want me mamas but you say you love me?"

"I do love you Roddy" I rolled off her and lay beside her.

"Then be with me mamas I don't want these other hoes I love you"

"Roddy I just need some time okay?"

"I been in the friend zone for fucking four years how much more time you need mamas!!?"

"Roddy it's complicated"

"Take all the time you need" I said hopping out of her bed and slipping on my clothes as I left. Exotic was so hot one minute then cold the next I was confused as fuck but since she said she needed time I wouldn't bother her no more. I got on my car and the phone started ringing

"Comeback Roddy please"
"Why should I mamas?"
"I want you please comeback".

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