life goes rollercoaster

chapter- 80

"I am insecure."

"Why?" I kneeled infront of him cupping his face.
"What if you too leave me like Kriya?" He said.
I was stunned with his question which was rather a confession.

Wasn't I being selfish? I thought about my insecurities, my comfort and my happiness but what about his'?

"Why would I leave you?"

"I don't know...... our marriage was forced maybe one day you will get irritated by my presence."

"Abhimaan? Look at me." I made him look at me.
"Me and Nini are complete different. It might hurt you but what you and Nini had was not love...... Maybe for you it was but not for her. She was scared of you."

"Do you think I will be scared of you?" He nodded as no.

"Don't you miss Sanam?" He looked at me with his teary red eyes with a red tint covering his nose and cheeks.

His eyes looked like he wanted 'no' as the answer.

"To be honest , yes , I do miss him. Why won't I ! After all I have spent 2 years with him." His eyes drooped down.

"But he's a memory now. A sweet memory. He was my past but you are my present and future. No one can be separated from their present and future, then how can I?"

"Is this Sanam's shirt?"
"Yes"  I answered him straight forward as there was nothing to hide.
"You didn't have a casual outfit so I gave you this."

"We're you and Sanam in a live-in relationship?"

"What! Who told you?"

"Is it true?"

"No"
"Then why his clothes are here?"

"It's because in his hostel he couldn't pull out an all nighter so he used to come here and prepare for his exams."

"So you both slept together?"

"Stop with this question answer session!"
"Please answer this." There was a desperation in his voice.

"No." He just nodded.
"Does that mean if I wasn't a virgin, you would have not accepted me?" Though it hurted to ask but it's better now than never, right?

"No, absolutely not! I will accept you in any form. I don't care if you are a virgin or not. Your present matters me."

"You won't leave me ever, right?" He showed me his baby little finger.

*Chuckles*

"I won't." I entangled my pinky finger with his.

"Let's stand now. My knees are paining."

"Can we cuddle?"
"Now?"
*Nods his head*

"Let's go then." And we went to the bedroom.

He snuggled onto me while I played with his hair caressing it.

"You know, I love you the most." A big smile formed on my lips.

"I know."

"I will die if you go away from me."
"Seriously dude! Someone had said that he wants to spend his life with me but here he's talking about death."

"It will be my last day when you leave me so my entire life-"

"Are you saying something, Mr. Baraskar?" I tapped his hip.

"Be serious for sometime, Krushi!" He grumbled.

"Why should I ? When you talk about only death!"  I sterned it out.