PERFECT LIE (COMPLETE)

CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO (Secrets)

Every virtuous acts is inspired by a dark secret.

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Riel

Damn her mouth feels good.

I was not expecting her to kiss me back. I was expecting a slap or a punch. I was an idiot for doing this but it was so long since I wanted to taste her lips. I just wanted to have a bite. A taste of how her lips was offering. But it took away all the pain that I was feeling all those years. The guilt. The anger. It cleans the fire that was eating me alive. Her kiss began control me. To control the monster that I was letting to control myself.

And I didn't want her to control me.

I had to pull. I needed to get away.

I saw confusion on her face when suddenly I pulled myself away from her. Her face was all red. What the fuck did I do? Why did I do that?

Bumuka ang bibig ko pero wala akong masabi. Kitang-kita ko ang kalituhan sa mukha ni Meara habang kahit siya ay tila naghahanap din kung ano ang dapat niyang sabihin.

"I..." wala akong masabi. Tangina. Ano bang demonyo ang pumasok sa akin at ginawa ko iyon?

Walang masabi si Meara at nakahawak lang sa bibig niya.

"Kuya Riel! You're home."

Pareho kaming napatingin ni Meara kay River nang patakbong lumapit sa akin at yumakap.

"Can we play tonight?" Nakangiting sabi nito sa akin pero unti-unti ding nawala ang ngiti na iyon nang makita ang dugo sa damit ko. "Is that blood?" Nanlalaki ang matang tanong nito.

"This?" Napatingin ako kay Meara. "No. This is not blood. I... I..." shit. Ano ba ang idadahilan ko? "I went to a friend of mine. A painter and accidentally the red paint went to my shirt. You know..." tumayo ako at pilit na pilit na nakangiti sa bata. Hindi ko magawang tumingin kay Meara. "I am going out for a while. I... I forgot I need to see a friend."

Hindi ko na hinintay ang isasagot nila at nagmamadali akong lumabas ng bahay ko at sumakay sa kotse. Ang lakas ng kabog ng dibdib ko. Dali-dali kong pinaandar paalis doon ang sasakyan. Hindi ko kayang magtagal doon. Hindi ko kayang humarap kay Meara.

Because I wanted more. I am craving for more. The moment I tasted her mouth, I didn't want just a bite. I wanted everything. Her. Every part of her. She may be a damaged good through the eyes of Perry, but for me, she was whole. She was something. A rare gem that needed to be taken care of.

Fuck.

Inis kong hinampas ang manibela ng sasakyan ko at kinagat-kagat ko ang mga daliri ko. Damn it. Siguradong mumurahin ako ni Ghost kapag nalaman 'to. He was right from the start.

I wanted her.

I am beginning to fall for her.

Hindi ko alam kung saan ako pupunta. Lalo lang gumulo ang isip ko dahil sa nangyari sa amin ni Meara. Gulong-gulo na nga dahil sa pagkamatay ni Vic tapos dumagdag pa iyon. Ang gago ko kasi.

Kinuha ko ang telepono ko at tinawagan ko si Ghost. I needed his help.

Kahit hindi ko na inaasahan na sasagutin niya ang tawag ko ay hindi ko ibinababa ang telepono. Hanggang sa narinig ko siyang sumagot.

"What do you need?" Seryosong tanong niya.

"I fucked up." Napabuga ako ng hangin. "Vic is dead."